main blog.

changed blog url

2007-02-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

Changed blog url.

http://ameblo.jp/miss-estherbelle

It's okay if you don't wanna relink me, I don't know how to link people in my new blog so I won't link you also. o(*^-^)o

mr wong came to st. nicholas today!!

2007-02-13T15:23:00.000+08:00

MR. WONG CAME TO ST. NICHOLAS TODAY!!!!!! ≧(´▽｀)≦

However, I ponned school today and did not get to see him. ( ￣っ￣)

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Anyway.

I am no longer depressed. (^_^)v

Turns out that I was only depressed cause I couldn't blog. (-_☆)

depressed.

2007-02-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

hellooooo.

I wanna be funny and loud and crazy.

But I can't.

I've been very emotional and depressed lately.

I've got a sore throat and flu.

Then my mother ask me to skip school tomorrow.

But I wanna gooooo.....................................

Mum is very contradicting.

That day, I said something about pimples. Like, pimple scar then pimple scar lor, can go for surgery to remove. Then she got angry and said,"YOU THINK WE SO MUCH MONEY IS IT!! Money is hard to earn hor!!"

Yesterday, she said,"Ay, wanna go courts? I buy you new camera." =__= I didn't even ask for a camera and she's just offering me one. Any camera that I want also can. And she even asked me if I wanted to go to China for 2 days just to go shopping.

Siao one.

And she keeps on saying she got money, don't need to go and prostitute myself for money. I think grandmama influenced her. Grandmama has been watching 'Ying Huo Chong De Meng' and she's very scared that I'll be like Enna//Xishi. She was very generous with her ang pow money too... She gave me $128.

I cry for very small things. Yesterday, my mother chided me for not peeling my own prawn and making grandmama peel them for me when her finger was hurt. Then I cried cause I didn't know grandmama's finger was hurt and I didn't ask her to help me peel also.

I cried when I got home cause I have no money to buy Laruku albums.

I cried cause I'm fat.

I cried cause I can't communicate with God.

Money!!!!!!! I've been spending so much!! Every week I buy new clothes and new make up!!! Now I got no money for Laruku!!!!!! =*((

Yesterday I spent $47 (after discount) on Cure and Neo Genesis, $28 on MAC lipstick, $13 on blue mascara and red lipliner (John Little had sale...) and $10 on food.

Argh. I really feel very depressed. And shopping makes me less depressed. But how long can this continue? I shouldn't waste money like this.

okay. I'm not going to crap on anymore.

pictures.

Somewhat satisfied with my eye make up that day.

Me, Karchian. My jaw is photoshopped. I only photoshop my jaw now cause it's really big. My nose is natural, lazy to photoshop it.

Rachel, me. Unphotoshopped jaw. This is how fat my face is.

I bought this shirt and tie at $18.90... As you can see, it totally doesn't suit me, so it's going to rot in my cupboard. This picture is not photoshopped, it's just the angle that makes my face look not fat.

I met jiejie jiawei and Takashimaya. She's really shuai!! *___* I'm really ugly in this picture, thus the funny face.

Unphotoshopped.

Unphotoshopped also. Was sending Yujun off to Germany... =*((

okay.

Bye bye loh.

Wish me luck.

blogging with pictures tomorrow!!

2007-02-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

I'll be blogging with pictures tomorrow!! Pictures of me, me, me, me, ME!!

haha I am damn zilian. v(*^-^*)v

Yujun's gone off to Germany... =*(( I miss her already =*((

confiscated pc

2007-02-04T15:30:00.000+08:00

Hey hey.

I just thought that I should inform everyone that my computer's been confiscated (I'm using my sister's now without her permission) and that if I do blog during this period of time, my blog entries will be pictureless and boring.

I AM VERY WORRIED THAT PEOPLE WILL STOP COMING TO MY BLOG!!!!!!

=*((

Anyway.

I think teacher student relationships are stupiddddddddd.

And I wish that people would stop comparing my like for mr. wong to all these dumb things.

Because I am not them, and they are not me, and I'm not stupid like them okay.

Today, another teacher student relationship thing came out in the newspaper.

It's so retarded cannnnnnnnnnnnnn.

So stop comparing me with them.

friends.

2007-01-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

erm estherbelle talked leeshi round last night. leeshi is the one who blogs most of the time.

estherbelle,"HELLO?! LEESHI AH, YOU HAVE LIKE SO MANY FRIENDS CAN?! Just that they're people friends, not friend friends!! But they're all still relatively patient and nice to you like Shirley, Brenda and your usual recess group, Weining, Jacinda bla bla bla!! And mummy Danica leh?! Your own mother you also don't ren4!! Zhen bu xiao!!"

And leeshi tried to argue but estherbelle kept on shooting off names of people through her mouth like a bullet train.

haha okay I'm really happy now o(^-^)o

But I'm supposed to be depressed, why am I happy!!! =*((

okay I'm depressed now (^-^)b

Sheesh this is so retarded, no matter what I do, I'm still a very happy bubble.

However!!!!!

I am a very emotionally unstable person, so please be understanding and patient towards be hah!!!! UNDERSTAND?!!!!

muack muack~~ o(^3^)o

no crush on wenjing

2007-01-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

estherbelle has a ridiculously short attention span and is no longer crushing on lim wenjing.

She, as of today, likes a tomboy girl whom she doesn't even know the name of and does not know if she will meet again.

I think I'm very anti social, argh!! I do have a list of darlings, but I'm not really close to them?! Y(>"<)Y

And my list of darlings are probably ALL the friends I have. I have so few friends that I can't even pick a few out to be in my list of darlings. =__=

Current list of darlings:
-pishyposhy family. (yes, I know it's weird to include uncle cinderella, but he's my god uncle so I'm including him anyway)
-jiejie jiawei, aunty apple, cousin charmainie
-chenchen, siying, val val, glynis (whom I no longer have a crush on too)
-Renyue, Jiaying

And the thing is, I'm not even close to any of them. Sheesh. Maybe I should go for the emo look, be depressed and be a loner??

But I hate depressed people!! =*((

Okay, I'm depressed now o(^-^)o

And congratulate me, I can see Wenjing tomorrow!! Did I say I stopped liking her?? Never mind. I can see her tomorrow!!!! Wooh!!!!!! v(^-^)v

hyde sama turns 38

2007-01-29T20:02:00.000+08:00

Happy 38th Birthday to my beloved Hyde sama~~

o(^з^)o-☆Chu!!

youth church

2007-01-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

Due to the lack of better things to do, I went for youth church yesterday with Karchian. It turned out to be okay, but I still think speaking in tongues is, ummmmmmm, rubbish. I think I should be attending it weekly from now onwards though. o(^-^)o

And and and I met Wenjing's cousin, Lay Ling yesterday!! They look really, really different. T__T

pictures.

Me and ummmmm I forgot her name.

Me and ummmm I forgot her name too.

I said my hair sucks, and you can see from these 2 pictures, it really really sucks. It's worse when I don't style it okay.

This is me, with Shirley in school. Unstyled hair. I just brush my fringe to one side and the result is me looking retarded.

Should I wake up 10 minutes earlier to style my hair and adjust it throughout the day in school, or should I continue to have retarded hair and risk Wenjing hating me cause I'm so ugly??

I think I shall stop being lazy and style it. Argh. Sleep, my beloved sleep!! =*((

Other church people...

Layling and Karchian

I forgot her name and I forgot her name. But I think the person on the right is really cute. *__*

Fake eyelashes on the top from The Face Shop that I bought yesterday and fake eyelashes from Missha that Glynis bought for me some time ago.

I wanna say that I hate fake eyelashes like the one on the bottom. They're so unobvious can!! >:(

I'm sorry Glynis, but I'm going to recycle your present and give them to Shirley who has incredibly short eyelashes. ARGH AT LEAST IT'S BETTER THAN LETTING THEM ROT IN MY MAKE UP BAG RIGHT?!!

Y(>"<)Y

Lastly, I would like to thank God for giving me such a nice life and for my seemingly permanent contentment with life despite piles of homework and failed tests.

But I hate stupid Jia Hui the science leader.

stupidjiahuistupidjiahuistupidjiahui!!

The secret to happiness is to cry your heart out and mope around in self pity for 1 hour EVERYDAY.

It's a waste of time but, well, it works for me. o(^-^)o

lacking sleep.

2007-01-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

I hate my hair and I'm very tired.

I've been crying everyday!! But I'm not stressed and definitely not depressed, I've been crying because I'm lacking sleep.

I wanna sleep... when I talk... when I walk... when I jog... during lessons (my beloved Japanese classes included)... when I see lim wenjing... when I wake up... when I blog... when I use the internet... when I do homework...

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Estherbelle has been very irritating recently, she keeps on arguing with leeshi and forces leeshi to go to school ON TIME and not sleep in class. Which results in a very tired me and leeshi finally winning today and me ponning school yet again.

e.g.
leeshi (during class),"wo yao shui jiao..."

estherbelle,"CANNOT!!!!!!!! You better concentrate ah!!"

leeshi,"concentrate for what?? Go home also can study what."

estherbelle,"Fine, think of it this way then. If you sleep and drool, sure very ugly one, do you really want to embarass yourself??"

leeshi,"ugly then ugly lah, mr. wong also die liao. And I'm so ugly in school already, uglier a bit also never mind one."

estherbelle,"wenjing see also never mind is it. Then you sleep lah, sleep lah!!"

leeshi,"walao you ah always wenjing this wenjing that, why you like wenjing, she's not even cute lor!!"

estherbelle,"Oi, wenjing is like waaaaay better than your stupid Wong Yoon Foong can, he is so gay lor!!"

estherbelle leeshi,"... ... ... you two shut up lah, I'm very tired and listening to you two arguing gives me a headache,"

And obviously I choose to stay awake for the fear of drooling in my sleep.

Slept 15 and a half hours today, am going to sleep somemore now, bye bye.

holding hands.

2007-01-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

funny picture. The words you cannot read say,"unwillingly harassed!!!!! BEWARE OF SUCH PERVS AROUND YOU."

By the way, the molester is me. I hold hands with everyone who has the misfortune of sitting besides me.

yah lahhhhhhhhhhhh I know I am a pervert and very much disliked by people.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. Sorry lah, Gwyneth.

I guess that in school, I'll have to stick to holding hands with Jiaying/Janet/Renyue/Puisan/various 1Unity06 people who are used to my abnormal ways.

3rd language, I have my beloved primary school classmates Jingrui and Shimin.

Outside, I have Charmainie, Jiawei and various primary school classmates to hold hands with, I guess.

I'm not sad/offended/angry because I'm super used to such stuff already, mainly because of this blog.

But still!! Some people are just so weird!! What's so disgusting about holding hands!! Y(>"<)Y

okay, fine, I'm the disgusting one.

Beware of this girl, named leeshi.

leeshi's a creep, a monster and she's going to eat you up.

ekie dying.

2007-01-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

My like for Ekie is almost all gone.

And, yes, Kuek the cactus is dying as well. I have not been talking to it.

x_______x

good news.

2007-01-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

erm Siyi said she thinks Wenjing is not scared of me.

And I'm still going to hold everyone's hand, Wenjing's included.

obsession (with wenjing)

2007-01-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

A story.

"leeshi has an obsession with Wenjing.

And Gwyneth told leeshi that Wenjing is terrified of leeshi and doesn't know how to react.

Yesterday, when leeshi ponned school, Janet told her that Wenjing got upset and cried in school because Shirley and Mavis wrote on the chalkboard a lot of times 'Estherbelle loves Wenjing' and 'Wenjing loves Estherbelle' during recess.

leeshi doesn't know what to say.

leeshi wouldn't cry, but that's because she's bisexual. If people say she's lesbian, they're half right. And to her, crushing on people openly is very normal.

But she knows, deep down in her heart, she is not normal and really should grow up."

...

...

...

...

...

DOT DOT DOT.

eh, I don't expect anything from Wenjing leh. Wenjing is straight, I am bi. I like Wenjing, Wenjing doesn't have to like me. SO WHY IS SHE STILL TERRIFIED OF ME!!

I wanna cry already lah!! But Wenjing is like damn nice lor, she still lets me hold her hand, despite my very obvious obsession with her.

erm, new classmates (if any bother to come lar), it's very common for me to be obsessed with people. Last year, I was obsessed with Natalie Chung, Benita Koh and Krystal Chng.

This year, the first victim is Wenjing. =____=

I won't like, molest the people I'm obsessed with or what, it's just a one sided thing, please don't be scared of me!! Y(>"<)Y

And, no, I have not forgotten my beloved mr. wong. It just happens that I see Wenjing almost daily and mr. wong is not in my school anymore, thus my obsession with Wenjing.

I still wish mr. wong was here, then I wouldn't like anyone except him. Unfortunately, he is not, so I'm going to continue to like Wenjing.

Well, I guess I can only console myself that at least school is interesting, not just homework, study and hateful teachers.

People, are you all going to be scared of me?? Or stand by me and continue to let me hold your hand despite the risks??

I know you're all going to be scared. =*((

But it's okay. Because I am a monster. And people are naturally terrified of monsters.

I can only say it is your misfortune to know me.

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On to happier things.

classmates, from left to right, Brenda, Wenjing, Tracy and Jomain.

the maths temporary remedial group (not including leeshi), Jia Hui, Shirley, Yingtong I think, Youshuang

Youshuang and Shirley. Youshuang never look at the camera leh!! >:(

The person who sits next to me, Mavis. she's very cute!!

Mavis again. And I insist, MAVIS IS CUTE. but I got no obsession with her.

A horribly edited picture of Wenjing. But I still like it!! hahahahaha.

Mummy Danica, looking incredibly tanned. I told her to open her eyes bigger lor!! Then she don't want. =____=

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aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiish.

Don't be scared of me leh.

I promise that I won't eat you up.

I really don't expect anything.

I'm just weird, I guess.

wenjing ~~

2007-01-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

I cannot resist the urge to put up this picture.

Cute Wenjing and pretty Gwyneth!! o(^3^)o

unfortunately, pretty Gwyneth closed her eyes while I took the picture, and refused to pose properly for another one. evil. =*(( But you can see that she has a super nice nose!! (^-^)b

I insist!! Wenjing is cute!! I INSIST!!!!!

Just patronise me and say she's cute lahhhhhh. Or I'll temporarily dislike you. hahahahaha.

and I still think Youshuang is pretty.

(x_____x) nyammy nyam nyam ~~

teach make up // hair cut

2007-01-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

I've decided to teach make up step by step today!! wooh!! now you can look like leeshi!! (^-^)b

yah, I'm lacking stuff to blog, so?? .___.

before:

after ( irrelevant, but you can see my dog in the background!! =DD ):

Yujun, this is why I say foundation, concealer and blusher is very important. See how much better my complexion looks with it!! X_____X

Let's start!! v(^-^)v

step 1!! line your eyes with black liquid eyeliner.

step 2. Cover the rest of your eyelid with black eyeshadow, or black pencil eyeliner, the effect is the same.

NOTE!!

1)You cannot cover your entire eyelid with liquid eyeliner, because the liquid eyeliner will stick together and pieces of skin will show amongst the black.

2)You also cannot cover your entire eyelid with pencil eyeliner//black eyeshadow either, because pencil eyeliner//black eyeshadow tends to fade, and you won't get the same feel as liquid eyeliner.

step 3. Add some bright eyeshadow!! I use silky girl's funky eyelights pencil in blue and in silver.

final step. Curl your eyelashes, add mascara (or fake eyelashes, whichever you prefer) and add 1/3 or 1/4 of a fake eyelash to the corner of the bottom of your eye.

end. o(^-^)o
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I went for a haircut with my sister yesterday.

Before cutting my hair. Yes, I know I look fat here.

After. It's terrible, I know. =*((

A better view, and me looking sulky.

My sister permed her hair slightly to reduce it's flatness. She looks damn funny!!

okay, my hair really sucks, I wanna cry. I'm going to look terrible in school tomorrow. =*((

And leeyi dropped 7kg in 1 month, because mummy brought her to this specialist and he gave her medicine and it cost my mummy 1000 plus dollars.

I wanna cry, she's losing weight so fast, and I'm can't seem to lose any weight at all.

Life's not fair.

And I still miss mr. wong.

obsession.

2007-01-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

You know something, I think, I'm a bit obsessed with mr. wong.

mr wong // school

2007-01-12T15:59:00.000+08:00

I miss mr. wong, he smells so nice.

I remember that when we had mass PE last year, I would pass by this science lab, and he would be teaching Biology in that science lab. And I would always peek in and feel happy for the rest of the day.

I remember that he used to sing Majulah Singapura horribly.

I remember hating some people because of mr. wong.

I remember printing out 2 pictures of mr. wong with this girl and using my purple marker to draw on this girl's face because I was jealous. I thought the girl was called Wenyi, but it turned out to be mr. wong's sister.

I miss mr. wongggggggggggggggggggggggggg. =*((

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I went to my aunty's house for maths tuition with rather light make up last Saturday.

eye make up.

yeah, I looked retarded. I'm never going to go out with light make up again.

My aunty's newest dog. This is like, her 5th dog?? =____=

random lights.

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school is okay, I managed to attend school everyday, yay. v(^-^)v

I love the world, I love my class, I love the teachers, I love the lessons, I love everything!! o(^3^)o

I love Vanessa, Krystal, Sandra, pretty people, Amanda, everyone!! o(^-^)o

I'm very happy everyday, possibly because I like mr. wong a lot. When I like someone a lot, I like the whole world too.

but i still hate dance enrichment. I can't dance for nuts, and I can't even memorise the dance steps. T___T

YOUSHUANG LOOKS LIKE AYANO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ayano.

Ayano and a very ugly Kohei.

I think a lot of people will say that they don't look alike.

Just like I think Yujun looks like the Nobuta girl.
Just like I think mr. wong looks like Po.
Just like I think I look like mr. wong.
Just like I think apples look like tomatoes.

NOBODY AGREES WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =*((

maybe I'm just blind. T__T

aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiish.

Jomain is very pretty!! She's got nice skin, nice hair and she's very slim too!!

She's tanned, but I think that her tan is nice. If people want to be tanned, I think they should all attempt to be Jomain's colour. Her skin colour is just right, you can actually tell that she's a chinese even though she's tanned.

Nothing against other races, but I think chinese should look like chinese, malays like malays and indians like indians, yah?? Y(>"<)Y

Wenjing is very cute and small, I like her, although she doesn't let me poke her.

Danica, whom I've known since last year because she went to a Lucify gathering with me, is also in the same class as me. yay. v(^-^)v

Lovin is nice, she lets me pinch her cheeks and ruffle her hair.

Qianyi is nice too, she lets me hold her hand and poke her.

I like Rachelle, I think she's pretty, although Jomain is prettier.

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okay, I know I'm droning on and on, forgive me, I rarely get the chance to blog. Y(>"<)Y

muack muack~~ o(^3^)o

I miss mr. wong, leeshi.

i hate being forced to study.

2007-01-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

i hate being forced to study.

i like, wanted to study today, then my mother was like,"YOU MUST STUDY IF NOT I WILL PUNISH YOU!!"

now i feel like failing everything just cause she's forcing me to study.

urgh.

leeshi, you cannot be rebellious. please do not fail. it is stupid to fail.

bye bye, till next friday. =*((

resolutions.

2007-01-05T16:14:00.000+08:00

Resolutions.

I will not be late for school because Ms. Susan Lim is scary and she's in charge of latecomers.

I will not skip school because Uncle Cinderella says I shouldn't.

I will not get expelled.

I will not use the computer from Monday - Thursday.

I will not be late for appointments.

I will not fail any subject other than Physics.

I will not quit Japanese class, tiring as it is.

I will not become tanned.

I will become fairer by avoiding the Sun at all costs.

I will revise my work daily.

I will do my Maths and Science homework.

I will get into double science stream.

I will lose 6 kg by exercising indoors and dieting.

I will remain a child.

I will keep in contact with everyone that is precious to me.

I will not develop a crush on Uncle Cinderella.

I will like Mr. Wong Yoon Foong until the end of this year.

pishyposhy family gathering.

2007-01-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

pishyposhy family gathering 1/1/2007.

pishy = uncle cinderella
poshy = yujun
porsche = esther
pishposh = me

colours are according to which teletubby we are. hahahahaha.

pishy + poshy + porsche + pishposh = pishyposhy

o(^-^)o

Went to meet Yujun at Bugis first before proceeding to meet up with aunty esther and uncle cinderella to watch Death Note 2. We were late, and the movie started before we arrived.

anyway.

UNCLE CINDERELLA IS VERY HANDSOME!!

very handsome.
very handsome.
very handsome.
very handsome.
very handsome.

VERY HANDSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he's so handsome that I can faint!! Y(>"<)Y hahahahaha.

pictures.

eye make up.

pretty Yujun.

tired Uncle Cinderella.

cute Esther.

happy people.

food!! o(^-^)o

pretty Esther.

serious Uncle Cinderella.

a very fair Yujun. But I am fairer MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

yay, I am the fairest one of all. v(^-^)v

Yujun looks like she's holding Uncle Cinderella in her hand.

a failed video. because only Esther knew that I was taking a video. And my voice!! omggggg. let me die.

I hate my voice!! hate it!! HATE IT!!!!!

today I was quite freaked out, because while I was on the way home at 10 something pm, 2 guys asked for my number.

the 1st guy said something about him being foreign and that he knows nothing about Singapore and wanted to make friends with me so that I could bring him around.

the 2nd guy stopped me while I was going up the stairs to my 1 room flat. He said that he lives somewhere near me and that he's seen me before and has been noticing me. then he say he want to make friends with me.

T__________T

very scary leh.

both of them look so old somemore.

How old do they think I am?? T________T

and they're blind lor, I'm so ugly and they still want my number. Siao.

I really hope that I won't see them again. x_______x

aiiiiish.

school starting on wednesday.

urghhhhhhhhhhhhh I hate school.

happy new year

2007-01-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

TO THE FLEA IN YOUR EAR!!

o(^-^)o

end of december

2006-12-31T17:35:00.000+08:00

urgh.

I hate short notices.

my mother says that she's going to visit ahmah in 2 hours.

urgh.

im supposed to go but then im not mentally prepared??

urgh.

then she say what, 2 hours is long notice not short notice.

urgh.

she think i bathe very fast meh.

urgh.

and make up takes me damn long.

urgh.

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sometimes i hate having very very very few friends.

because i cannot find anyone to go out with on tuesday.

jiaying is going out with someone else.

and i dont know who else to ask.

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today is the last day of 2006.

and im spending it by rotting away at home.

i lost my maths and physics worksheets.

why the hell do we have so much homework.

i hate st. nicholas.

i hate st. nicholas.

i hate st. nicholas.

i hate st. nicholas.

i hate st. nicholas.

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95% of the time, I like uncle cinderella as an uncle.

and the other 5%, I like him as a crush.

possibly because he reminds me of mr. wong.

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highlights of 2006:

-entered secondary school.

-met nice people. mr wong, jiaying, renyue, esther, yujun, uncle cinderella, apple, charmainie, jiawei.

-Lucify.

-make up.

-started liking visual kei.

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anyway, i don't understand why chenchen and siying think yujun is cool.

her comment isn't even shocking, it's just a normal opinion.

as in, i do think that yujun is very unique, but not cause of that comment.

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okay lah. i feel moody.

bye bye.

shoes.

2006-12-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

I want these shoes.

eh!! anyone want to help me buy the red pair of fake eyelashes from this picture!!

then meet up with me and i pay you the money?? i really want them.

buy from here http://www.mydivascloset.com/noname53.html

can't buy myself, cause mother doesn't allow me to buy things from the net.

urgh.

i wish i was famous.

then someone will really buy for me.

=*((

pictures from 28/12 and 29/12

2006-12-29T23:13:00.001+08:00

yesterday:

me.

nails on left hand.

nails on right hand.

leeyi, my sister, and I. yah, I was wearing my Lucify shirt. x__x

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Decided to go to sentosa, then go and meet Glamourous Glynis. In the end, I woke up at like 1.30pm?? So, I managed to meet up with Glamourous Glynis only.

Glamourous Glynis is very nice. She gave me a pair of fake eyelashes from Missha as a present, but I doubt I'll use them, cause they're quite short.

I want obvious, long, dramatic and thick fake eyelashes. I don't want normal length ones.

we decided to watch Death Note 2, but Glamourous Glynis had to leave 1 hour into the movie cause she has stretching classes. urgh. I hate watching movies by myself.

and and and, there were 2 females, they kept on talking throughout the whole movie. damn irritating. I don't know why I didn't ask them to shut up.

In future, I shall tell all people who talk for more than 5 minutes during movies to shut up.

eh, I decided that I won't tell all people to shut up. I'll only tell normal looking people to shut up. If the person looks fierce, then I tell her off, she might make an even bigger racket and scold me, then die.

Glamourous Glynis. She wouldn't let me take a picture of her. she's so mean, right?? T___T

random cute dog in a pet shop.

random sleeping hamsters in the same pet shop.

Glamourous Glynis, me.

night scenery.

Glamourous Glynis said something about stripes being in fashion this year, but out of fashion next year so I'd better not wear striped shirts next year.

aiyah.

whatever.

out of fashion then out of fashion lah. wear already won't die one. I'm going to continue wearing my striped shirts because they're long sleeved. I didn't even know that stripes were fashionable this year until Glynis told me.

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Tatsuya Fujiwara o(^3^)o

deathnote 2 not nice

2006-12-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

Tatsuya Fujiwara is <3.

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eh. didn't take any pictures today. so got nothing interesting to blog about.

but then ah!! Deathnote 2 really sucks.

My Tatsuya Fujiwara died in a very lame way. And Death Note 2 never follow the manga one lor.

sian. sian. sian. sian. sian.

I feel like I can fall in love with Tatsuya Fujiwara over and over again. He was so handsome in Battle Royale, and now in Death Note also so handsome!! o(^3^)o

Uncle Cinderella is also very very very very very handsome!! I hope I can see him again on Monday. Then it'll be like watching Deathnote 2 with Tatsuya Fujiwara HAHAHAHAHA. o(^-^)o

Tomorrow, 6H gathering or watching Death Note 2 again with Glynis Chai?

Haven't decided. I think I'll be better off watching Death Note 2 again.

aiyahhhhhh. Is Glynis really more important to me than 6H?? Will I really have more fun watching Death Note 2 with her?? But I got nothing to say to her leh.

It's actually the prospect of watching Death Note 2 again that makes me want to go out with Glynis not Glynis herself, although I like her.

I wish Glynis could go to the 6H gathering also. Then I can go for the 6H gathering with no regrets. But she doesn't want to and I should be understanding.

whattodowhattodowhattodowhattodowhattodo?? =*((

painting nails. mr. wong plant. school reopening.

2006-12-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

random incoherent entry.

I wanted to blog about my mr. wong plant. but then I feel damn tired.

So I'm just going to anyhow paint my nails, paste random nail stickers on my painted nails, add a protective cover, wait for nails to dry, then sleep. Which will take me 1 hour plus.

I woke damn early today lor!! I woke up at 12pm leh!! That's like, almost in the MORNING??

tiredtiredtiredtiredtired.

school's reopening, and I seriously think there's nothing to look foward to. Ewen good lah. Still in primary school. eshuen even luckier. next year primary 1. And me?? Secondary 2. Got to grow up. Don't want to grow up. GAH.

Recently, I find my mother very perfect. It's like, whatever problem there is, she can miraculously solve it. When I grow up, sure cannot be like her one lor.

When I grow up, I bet I will go bankrupt or something. Get divorced. Get abortion. Children go jail. Sure will have messed up life. sian.

Can I don't grow up and don't face stupid problems. Can I don't grow old cause I don't want to become even more fat than I am now. Can I don't grow old cause I don't want to get wrinkles.

I think if I ever become as fat as Esther I will commit suicide. yah lah yah lah I'm very rude whatever I know Esther won't mind. At least, I think she won't mind.

okay. Back to my nails.

I'm painting them cause I'm going to eat Sakura Buffet and then FINALLY watch Death Note 2 tomorrow with aunty and sister.

Then Friday I'm going for 6H gathering.

Next Monday going out with Yujun and Esther. Uncle Cinderella might be coming also.

HOW CAN I DON'T PAINT MY NAILS?!! It's the last time they will be painted for a long long time lor.

anyway, I'll possibly have a more interesting entry tomorrow.

For now, I'm just going to rant on and on. Because I ren3 very long already, don't say out can die.

Glynis, Valerie and Inez all not going the 6H gathering. Valval's overseas. Glynis got cramp. Inez got CCA.

aiyah. I don't really want to see Inez and valval. don't want to see Inez because I'm not interested in her. don't want to see Val val cause I've seen her 2 times during november and december holidays already.

I want to see Glynis because I like her. and I like her very long already lor. 2 years. that's the longest time I've liked anyone.

I feel upset. I wish I could be more understanding, but I just can't. That's why I find my mother amazing.

I wish I could tell my mother that I think she's amazing and that I, um, love her and that I do appreciate her, although I may not seem like it. But I just cannot bring myself to say it.

I feel embarassed to tell her that, but at the same time, I'm very scared that if I don't say them, I won't have the chance to say them. It's like, everyone might die any moment.

Hopefully, she'll be alive for a long long long time. Then I'll have time to find some occasion to tell her. Or write what I feel down.

oh yah, anyone free on january 2nd, I want to go out again before school starts.

EVERYONE BULLY ME!!!!!

2006-12-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

EVERYONE BULLY ME!!!!!!!

WHOLE CLASS MY RESULTS MOST SIMILAR TO JIAYING LOR!!

THEN WE NOT IN SAME CLASS FOR SECONDARY 2!!!!!!

RENYUE AND JANET THEIR RESULTS SO GOOD, WHY THEY SAME CLASS AS ME!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T WANT THEM CAN!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT MY JIAYING LAH!!!!!!!!!!!! ST. NICHOLAS BULLY ME!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THAT GLYNIS CHAI HOR!!!!!! I 6 MONTHS NEVER SEE HER LE LOR!!!!!! THEN SHE SAY SHE CANNOT GO THE 6H GATHERING!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEN I ASK SO MANY PEOPLE IF I CAN EAT THEM UP. AND THEY SAY NO!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

AND APPLE JIAWEI CHARMAINIE ALL SO BUSY!!!!!!! CANNOT MEET UP WITH THEM ANYMORE!!!!!

GAHHHHHHHHHHHH.

okay okay. I shall calm down.

but it's like seriously lor!! whole world Jiaying nicest to me. and she's not same class as me anymore.

but physics group I'm grouping with Jiaying, yay. v(^-^)v

and if we have no time, which is very possible, I'll just do 13 pages of the history workbook, jiaying will do the other 13, and we'll copy each other's work. MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

aiyah. damn sian lah. my jiaying not with me. cannot see my glynis chai. cannot see my apple charmainie and jiawei. and and and!! aiyah. cannot say.

i want to blog about my mr. wong plant leh!! but i go no mood!! X____X

URGHHHHH WHY LIKE THAT!!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

2006-12-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

monster leeshi says: MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! May I eat you up?? *____*

estherbelle is truly ashamed of leeshi. Y(>"<)Y

3 pictures of my beloved Hyde sama.

Santa Hyde. o(^-^)o

Victorious Hyde. v(^-^)v

A cute Hyde. o(^3^)o

Yujun and me on IMVU. Yujun's character really looks like her in real life. (O_O)

I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care my IMVU character is prettier!!

>:(

anyway. so far, only 1 person agreed to let me eat them up. =*((

you all are big fat meanies!! >:(

Uncle Cinderella said I can't eat him up. But he's granted my wish, and he says he'll let me poke him forever!!!!!!! v(^-^)v

YAY LEESHI LOVES UNCLE CINDERELLA aka PISHY from her PishyPoshy family!! o(^3^)o

p.s. shan't terrorise everyone today about my beloved mr wong. so I'm not going to blog about mr wong the plant. BUT I STILL LOVE MR WONG YOON FOONG hahahahaha.

p.p.s. I FEEL INCREDIBLY BLESSED. o(^-^)o

wishlist updated.

2006-12-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

for future self reference. links to remember:

-http://karaokebox.org (japanese karaoke!! o(^-^)o)

-http://hyde.sleazoid.net (great Hyde fansite, with links to other great Hyde fansites)

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updated wishlist:

1) ALL HYDE RELATED STUFF. Flyers, posters, guitar picks, other random small things included.

2) MR. WONG YOON FOONG.

3) To be able to poke Uncle Cinderella FOREVER.

anyway, I'm not putting on my wishlist "To see Hyde live" because I think it's highly possible that I'll be going to one when I'm in JC 1. If I can get a ticket lah.

I WILL GET A CONCERT TICKET!! iwilliwilliwilliwilliwill!! Y(>"<)Y

I'm so depressed. I don't have a single Hyde/L'Arc~en~Ciel DVD leh!! =*((

meagre Hyde related collection: 3 L'Arc~en~Ciel albums, 3 L'Arc~en~Ciel best of hits, 3 Hyde albums, 1 Hyde single, 1 Hyde magazine.

total amount of money spent: $325

I spent so much for so few things because 2 of the Hyde albums were bought in Japan, and the single was also bought in Japan. Stuff in Japan is very overpriced, you knowwwwwwwwwwww... Y(>"<)Y

And my L'Arc~en~Ciel 'Heart' album, although bought in Singapore, cost me $70+... Very expensive lor.

okay. I know. I am a lousy Hyde fan. =*((

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I WANT TO GO OUT.

This is my 7th day stuck at home.

My make up and violet contact lenses are begging to be used!!

Anyone want to ask me out??!! Before my school holidays end?? Before I become preoccupied with stupid school?!!

I don't care who you are, ask me out!! Y(>"<)Y

I am seriously desperate. x________x

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------video of chen chen, siying, val and me. I make stupid faces in this video. And yes, I am very ugly. =*((

video of Juu and me. Taken because the bus was moving, and I wanted a clear picture of Juu and I.

unphotoshopped picture of yujun and me. As in, I didn't photoshop my face or skin colour.

Yeah, I look stupid. And I don't know why the baby fat on my face simply refuses to go away. I guess I'm just fat. =*((

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mr. wong finally started to grow!! More on that later or tomorrow, because my mother is chasing me off the computer.

GAH. WHY CAN'T SHE LET ME USE IT LONGER HELLO WHEN SCHOOL START I CAN ONLY USE 4 HOURS A WEEK AND ONLY ON WEEKENDS YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAHHHHH. >:(

my poor Kiki.

2006-12-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

my poor Kiki. Charged with evading taxes.

translated article: http://eleclutier.blogspot.com/2006/12/oh-my-god-bizarre-arrest.html

=*((

Kiki so poor thing. My Tadashi Matsuura!! =*((

sad. sad. sad. sad. sad.

christmas wishlist

2006-12-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

My Christmas wishlist -

1) wongie wongwong. (mr. wong yoon foong)

give me mr. wongggggggggggggggggg. it's pointless to ask me what else I want, because my answer will be the same.

Unless you're my Haku baby/Joojoo oppa, and you ask me what I want. Then I will obviously say,"I want youuuuuuu."

If you're Kiki, and you ask me what I want, I will say,"I want moneyyyyyyyy."

If you're Hyde, I'll say,"I want you to sing to me!!"

But you're obviously not Haku baby/Joojoo oppa. And not my Kiki. And definitely not my Hyde-sama.

so.

give me mr wonggggggggggggggggggggg. I don't want Haku baby or Joojoo oppa. I prefer mr wong.

give me mr wongggggggggggggggggg.

uncle cinderella

2006-12-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

I'm officially liking Charles as an uncle, from today onwards.

MY UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^3^)o

Uncle Cinderella said his niece doesn't call him Uncle. So, only I call him Uncle?? and he's not even my real uncle. o____O

anyway, this sudden change from crush to uncle is inspired by an unexpected phonecall I got yesterday. hahahahaha. I wish I could say who called me, but I can't.

I think it's okay to blog about anything I want, but it's not okay to implicate people in my rubbishy blog.

I may say that I dislike people here without telling them, because a lot of the time, my dislike for them is only temporary.

So, I'm not hypocritical okay.

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anyway.

ewen ar, don't copy the-miracle-season. She kind of reminds me of xiaxue, except that she's more boring and uglier. I like xiaxue, but I don't like act-xiaxues. Nothing against her, I do think her blog entries are interesting, but she's her blog profile's very act-xiaxue. I like her blog, just don't like her blog profile.

If you really want to copy someone, copy xiaxue. Not act-xiaxues. =_____=

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oh yah. people keep on asking me to link them. and I really don't want to link them. then they think I'm a big fat meanie. =*((

I have nothing against them, but I just don't want to link them.

If you're linked, it means either:
a)I like your blog a lot
b)I like you a lot
c)You're good looking, and you post up pictures of yourself

Or a combination of a, b, c, maybe even all. Then again, there are people like Juu who I like a lot, like their blog a lot, who are good looking and post up pictures of themselves, but I don't link.

aiyah. I just don't want to link lah. dontwantdontwantdontwant!! x____x

I'm really very mean leh!! Some people link me then I never link them!! Sorry laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Take off my link!! TAKE IT OFF!! I really feel very guilty!! Y(>"<)Y

people who I'm close to linking, but just refuse to link.

Chenchen (lijuan) http://oonaroo.blogspot.com (links me, despite me not linking her)
Siying http://tangled--up.blogspot.com (ditto)
ewen http://rainxbowz.blogspot.com (cousin)
Juu http://juu-.blogspot.com (nothing, I just like her blog)
Aoi/melon http://melon7.livejournal.com (ditto)

I realised that most of the people I link rarely come to my blog. okay. I only have 6 links. Jiawei, Apple and esther come to my blog once in awhile, Mizuki doesn't even know who I am. Uncle Cinderella probably won't bother about me in awhile. Only Yujun the super nice person bothers to come. =*((

don't care lah. I just like their blogs laaaaaaaaaaah. even if they don't link me. x_______x

----------------------------------------------------------------------------- UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
im glad that
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
i have a long time to go before I become an adult.
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
although it means i cant date my uncle cinderella
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
HAHAHAHAHA
「ジュイ」 i don't feel depressed anymore yay!! [ 樹威　＊＿＊] says:
well you can always date uncle cinderella
「ジュイ」 i don't feel depressed anymore yay!! [ 樹威　＊＿＊] says:
i used to think ive got a long time more to go, but time has been flying past so fast it doesn't feel real
「ジュイ」 i don't feel depressed anymore yay!! [ 樹威　＊＿＊] says:
before you know it, you'll be 18 too
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
i dont want to date my uncle.
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
he's part of my family
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
i want to date mr wong
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
Uncle Cinderella
UNCLE CINDERELLA!!!!! o(^-^)o says:
I love my Uncle Cinderella!

yayyyyyy. I love my Uncle Cinderella!! And I love my aunty Esther also. hahahahaha.

omggggggggggg this post is so boring. I probably won't blog for the next few days. because I got nothing to blog, and im getting boring-er and boring-er.

x__________x leeshi.

p.s. i like mr wong. wongie wongwong!! o(^3^)o I... ... ...

likehimlikehimlikehimlikehimlikehim.

DO YOU KNOW THAT I LIKE MR. WONG YOON FOONG??!!

lala feels okay now.

2006-12-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

Congratulate me!!

LALA FEELS OKAY NOW!!!!!!!!!!! (^-^)b

by the way, lala is my tummy.

yesterday, lala felt very upset. thus making me feel very upset too. bad lala!! I don't friend you le!! HMPH. >(

anyway the previous post was rubbish lah. I think it's damn funny now when I re-read it. HAHAHAHAHA OMG LEESHI IS SO CHILDISH!!!!!!!!!!

I still feel sorry towards Juu though. =*((

Yujun's really very nice. She kept on trying to cheer me up. YUJUN IS SO NICE!! o(^3^)o

Apple was nice also. She gave me a kiss to cheer me up. HAHAHAHAHA.

Charles is super nice too, apologising when it's not his fault. I mean, it was me who wanted to stalk him?! And when I didn't get to see him, he apologised?! (o__O) siao.

A Deathnote poster I saw yesterday. made me somewhat happier.

A nice, rainy night.

okay okay. Lala apologised to me. So I shall forgive her this time. =DDD

LALA I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! MAY YOU BE HAPPY EVERYDAY!!!!!!!! o(^3^)o

sad.

2006-12-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

I feel sad.

I went out with Juu today.

I went out feeling very cheerful.

And I kept on talking about Cynical Cinderella Charles to Juu. Like,"CHARLES IS SO SHUAI. CHARLES IS SO NICE!!!!!"

I thought Charles was going to go Cathay, so poor Juu had to walk around boring Cathay with me.

And I continued to talk about Charles while we walked around. Like,"Juu, do you know that Charles shoe size is 8.5? Do you know his favourite colours are black and red? Do you know that his favourite flowers are black roses?" and so on.

Then in the end I didn't get to see Charles lor.

We went to eat after that and I told Juu somemore about Charles.

We decided to go Chinatown.

And I kept on saying,"I miss Charles. JUU I MISS CHARLES!!"

Then I don't know why from Charles suddenly become mr. wong.

And I said,"JUU I WANT MR WONG FOR CHRISTMAS PRESENT. GIVE ME MR WONG!!"

anyway. I don't know why I feel so depressed and sick today.

I think I'm lacking sleep.

I vomited, but I swallowed the vomit back. I know it's gross. but I can't suddenly vomit in front of everyone right.

I don't know lah. Then Juu and I went home early cause I really felt very horrible.

I think I don't make any sense.

But anyway. JUU I'M VERY SORRY!! =*((

I'm so terrible. I asked Juu out, and in the end I wanted to go home so early. And I was so boring. And stupid. And idiotic.

I really feel very upset. I didn't get to see Charles, and it's as if mr. wong's died.

I'm so childish and fat and hateful. Gah.

Charles Charles Charles Charles Charles.

wong wong wong wong wong.

i miss mr wong.

SIAO

2006-12-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SIAO!!!!!

AND I'M TERRORISING EVERYONE ON MSN!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

ESPECIALLY JUU!!!!!!!!

CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
i believe i
can fly
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
i believe i can touch the sky
CYNICAL CINDERELLA
CHARLES!!!!! says:
come fly with me
CYNICAL
CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
lets fly away
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
I CAN FRY A
PANCAKE
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
I CAN FRY A FLYING PANCAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jurassic JUU
Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
WAOOOO!!!!!
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
-____-
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
okay
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
i believe you
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
youre not gna fry your panckae
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
hahahahahaha
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
PANCAKE!
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
CHARLES WO TABETAI!!!!!!!!!!!
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
I WANT TO EAT CHARLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
are you sure hes yummy!
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
YES!
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
do you use maple syrup on your pancakes
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
haha
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
no!
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
BUT I USED TO PLAY MAPLE STORY!
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
OMG HAHAHA
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
THAT IS SO
Jurassic JUU Jokes!♥ I STILL WANT THAT PUMA BAGGGG says:
OUT OF POINT YOU PONG

AND AND AND!!!!! RIGHT NOW MY MSN DISPLAY NAME IS DAMN STUPID!!!!!

"CHARLES WO TABETAI!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! I FEEL SIAO!!!!!!! =_____= HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!"
"ARE YOU A BUCHI?!"

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

(o_O), leeshi P.S. THE PIG DAMN FUNNY LAH!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA.

ARE YOU A BUCHI????!!!!!!!!!!

Charles as Ariel.

2006-12-17T21:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, because there's a Cinderella in Charles' nickname, I imagined him as all the Disney princesses.

Anyway, try imagining him as Ariel!! Singing and all that, with the mermaid tail and bra.

IT'S SO FUNNY LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay okay.

leeshi. please don't siao already.

okay... calm down... ... ...

BUT IT'S SO FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha!

siao le, leeshi.

shiawase/charles pictures.

2006-12-17T19:42:00.000+08:00

Today I felt really happy and I kept on msn-ing random people to tell them about Charles.

And I msn-ed stupid stuff to Yujun also!! example:

CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
but recently i
think everything is funny
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
and i keep on laughing and laughing
CYNICAL
CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
and i keep on feeling
happy
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
even when im doing stupid homework
CYNICAL CINDERELLA
CHARLES!!!!! says:
im like,"HAHAHAHAHA!! HOMEWORK!!! SO
STUPID LAH THIS COMPREHENSION!!!!!!!"
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!!
says:
Then geography,"HAHAHAHAHA 10 NEWSPAPER
ARTICLES!!!!! SURE CANNOT FINISH ONE!!!!! THEN THE TEACHER WILL BE ANGRY!!!
HAHAHAHA!!"
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
science,"HAHAHAHAHA CELLS!!! SO FUNNY!! CELLT DE MERO LOOK LIKE
HAKU BABY!!!! PHYSICS ONLINE TEST!!!! I WILL ANYHOW ANSWER!!! EVERYTHING CHOOSE
FIRST ONE!!! LATER WILL GET SCOLDED!! HAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY!!!!!!!!"
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
very siao
right
CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES!!!!! says:
HAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!

And I kept on shouting at the top of my voice and anyhow singing to Lucify songs. Lucify makes me highhhhhhhhhh!!!!! v(^-^)v

Then after 1 hour or so, I got tired, then I lazy to shout and laugh at everything. So, I listened to L'Arc~en~Ciel. L'Arc~en~Ciel makes me feel really calm.

Right now, I'm listening to Hyde.

shiawase!! shiawase!! SHIAWASE!!!!!

It's really difficult to believe the world isn't a happy, lovely place.

I don't care already.

In my blog, my world will always be a happy, lovely, beautiful, magical place.

My world will always look like this.

yay.

shiawase!! o(^-^)o

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Pictures of Cynical Cinderella Charles!!

I edited this picture using photoshop. I think the lighting is super nice and I think Charles looks like a superstar here!! o(^-^)o

me, Charles. I look short here, good. (^-^)b Charles is only 165cm short, and I look a lot shorter, yay.

Charles, me. blocked my face out cause I look dumb. and, gosh, do I always sit like this?!! It's so un-ladylike!! x___x I didn't know that I sit like that till today.

HAHAHAHAHA CHARLES LOOKS SO BIAN TAI!!!!!

credits to 1st pic to Charles, credits for the 2nd, 3rd and 4th pic to Yujun, credits for editting to me. me. ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't think I will like Charles as a crush for very long. I think I will like him as a god uncle in a few days time. The only person I have a permanent crush on is Hyde, and the 2nd longest is mr. wong. hahahahaha.

Anyway.

I love all of you to death!! Ai si ni men le!! Muack muack!! o(^3^)o

shiawase, leeshi.

a day out with yujun and charles.

2006-12-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

I went out with pretty Yujun and Cynical Cinderella Charles to some cosplay thing today.

okies. I have to say this first.

CYNICAL CINDERELLA CHARLES IS SO SHUAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'S SUPER SHUAI CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to call him Cynical Cinderella Charles cause he likes Cynical Charles, but I don't think he's cynical. I like Cinderella Charles, but he doesn't like it. So end up with Cynical Cinderella Charles lor. Actually, he doesn't like that also, but he still lets me call him that anyway.

Isn't he super nice? YES!!!!!! HE IS SUPER NICE!!!!!!!

And he lets me poke him!! and ruffle his hair!! SO NICE RIGHT!!!!!!!! *mumbles on about Cynical Cinderella Charles*

okay. I know. I am very bian tai. I cannot help it lah, I have a weakness for shuai guys. Y(>"<)Y

pictures.

I think the gold coloured ring adds at least a year to my age. yay. o(^-^)o

YUJUN IS MORE TANNED THAN ME!! WAHAHAHAHAHA!! Ignore my fat legs.

Is me. I think in future I won't bother photoshop my nose smaller anymore, I'll just draw this pig nose. What!! You know photoshop takes me super long?!! grrrrr.

A walking brownie. Yujun molested it's butt. hahahahaha.

Yujun treated me to a drink, and I treated her to a muffin. But the drink is more expensive. YUJUN IS SO NICE!!!!!!!!!

left to right, my drink, Yujun's drink, Cynical Cinderella Charles' drink.

Cynical Cinderella Charles' bag. Yes, I am a stalker. Y(>"<)Y

okies. I know you are dying to see how Charles' looks like right? right?? RIGHT!!!!!

I knew it. YOU ARE AS BIAN TAI AS ME!!!!! Want to see shuai guy!! bwahahahahaha.

okay. I don't think I'm making any sense. never mind.

Charles and Yujun's back. See. I am a stalker. Y(>"<)Y

Cynical Cinderella Charles!!!!!!!! SO SHUAI RIGHT!!!!!

Charles and Yujun

Yujun says Charles looks like pole dancer. hahahahaha.

SEE!!!!!

CHARLES IS SO SHUAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, saw Jelly Jiro, Delectable Dennis, Jackfruit Jeffrey, Mizuki and Aoi-chan today. But stupid me got too shy to ask for autograph again. Gah. I don't want to talk about it.

yay. Today was fun!! o(^-^)o

Charles so shuai, leeshi

a day out with chenchen, siying and valval

2006-12-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

I went out with Chenchen, Siying and Valval today, yay!!

Nothing special happened, except that it's super obvious that Chenchen and Siying are a pair, whilst Valval and I are another pair. Valval and I aren't close lah, but it's like, forced to stick together?? Since Siying and Chenchen are so closely knitted to each other. Quite seperated. x___x

But we're all friends lah. o(^-^)o

Valval very funny lor. As in weird funny, not haha funny. Whenever we go out, she keep on saying she want to go home. Then she come out for what?!! RAHHHHH!!!!!

Anyway, she say say only lah, in the end go home same time as all of us.

yay, I love Valval, she's so nice. o(^3^)o

Took neoprints twice, looked horrible both times.

Went to Bugis Icon, and Valval started being boliao. She kept on hiding from Chenchen and Siying, and since I'm like supposed to stick with Valval, I had to hide with her. Very tiring and warm leh!! I don't know why she finds it fun. I guess I have a dry sense of humour.

We went to Heeren (Valval wanted to go to Dhoby Ghaut but we bullied her, hahahahaha) after that, and I bought my beloved L'Arc~en~Ciel 'Heart' album at $72. yay. v(^3^)v

Did some shopping, I bought loose socks, knee lenght socks, 2 hair accesories and 1 gold ring. I bought the gold ring in an effort to make me look older.

I really don't like looking 11 or 13, super sian. I want to look 15 or 16.

I'm getting long winded, I wish I was as funny as Apple. =*((

pictures.

Me. Yay, my fringe covers my whole eye.

But it became like this after awhile. Stringy and yuck. Sigh.

Me and Siying. I didn't want to post up this picture lah, cause I look so ugly. But Siying looks super pretty here, so I post lor. See, I'm nice okay.

nails on left hand. These are mean nails.

nails on right hand. These are happy nails.

I'm not mean, but I'm not super happy either, so my nails ended up like that. I wish I wasn't so normal, and had a distinctive style. =*((

My L'Arc~en~Ciel 'Heart' album. o(^3^)o HYDE LAST TIME GOT FRINGE COVER EYE LOOK LEH!! I now then realise. I have old pictures of Hyde, but I never really noticed that he had such a nice fringe.

Saburou. Isn't Saburou like the shuai-est guy on Earth ever????? okies. mr wong more shuai HAHAHAHAHA. and Hyde is more shuai than mr wong.

I like my make up even if people say I look ah lian-ish, look like a Japanese wannabe, look like a school dropout and look stupid and ugly.

Benefits of my make up:

-makes eyes look super big (my eyes still look small, but that's cause I have really small eyes)

-people don't dare to ask me for donations. (last time I never wear people keep on asking me lor, damn sian. And I can't bear to not give them. sigh.)

-nobody sits next to me in bus.

-nobody snatches seat from me.

See!! So many benefits lor. (^-^)b

Anyway, I'm going out with Yujun and Esther's friend later to some Anime Convention thing at Expo, yay. Yujun says Esther's friend is pretty, I can't wait to see him. o(^-^)o

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I don't know why but I keep on laughing at this line,"Isogashii, isogashii, yaritai koto ga dekinai."

I think I'm siao, it's not even funny. x____x

nice hair

2006-12-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

I really really like people who have nice hair!!

Anyway, I'm going to grow my hair like Ryuto's from Teddy. I'm going to dye mine like his also.

Ryuto. (at least, I think he's Ryuto, not 100% sure)

other pictures of nice hair. Take note that all of their fringes cover one of their eyes.

Kisaki kami-sama

Can't really see the hair, but I think Kiki looks super adorable with the dog. o(^3^)o

Kousei. I love his fringe!!

Tero-kun has a nice fringe. But he's so ugly. x___x

Giru-chan. I really like Giru-chan, he's so cute.

I think this is Tsukasa from Bis. Not sure. But it's NOT Kiki.

Ekie!! *___*

Kikuye

Juya from d'air.

And Yujun.

SO NICE RIGHT!! THE FRINGE COVER EYE LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!! *____*

Anyway. I feel like laughing because Yujun's fringe got cut off by her friend's mum. So now, it looks worse than mine MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

sigh.

Who ask Yujun so pretty.

Now, she looks less pretty, I of course happy lah. x___x

yay. going out with beloved chen chen, siying and valval later. v(^-^)v

rankings.

2006-12-14T18:11:00.000+08:00

Hyde is God.
mr. wong is Jade Emperor.
Ekie is immortal.
Joojoo oppa is deity.
normal idols and crushes are mermaids.
Friends are fairies.
msn contacts are sea foam. (but they get upgraded to friends if we meet up at least once)
People who comment on my blog are breezes.
Classmates/school mates are humans.
leeshi is a monster.

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Hyde is like everything.

Father, grandfather, uncle, brother, husband, boyfriend, friend.

hahahahaha.

Of course, I know he isn't God. But to me he's like God, except he's on Earth, and more real.

God is really just like... somebody I believe in cause I'm scared. I hate to say it, but I don't really love God for God.

If I wasn't so scared of going to Hell, if I wasn't scared that bad stuff would happen to me, I wouldn't be Christian.

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I guess I haven't really felt God yet. Maybe I'll become a better Christian when I grow older.

violet contact lenses

2006-12-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

I collected my violet contact lenses today!! yay!! v(^-^)v

They were a bit blurry at first, but in an hour or so, my eyes sort of got used to them and everything became clear again.

Encore colour contact lenses are really super comfortable!!I love love love love love Encore colour contact lenses!! (^-^)b

Went for tuition at aunty's house today.

Then I went to meet up with grandma and found a This Fashion shop. I bought a jacket at $15 and a long sleeved shirt at $13.

I'm trying to convert my whole wardrobe to long sleeved stuff. I don't want to get tanned.

I'm super loser-ish because all the clothes I like and wear are from This Fashion. But This Fashion clothes really very cheap and nice lor!! Y(>"<)Y

Gah. I'm now left with around $25.

I keep on spending money, but I still end up with $25 because whenever I lack money, my grandmother will give me money. And the stuff I bought yesterday were funded by my mother. I got $25 for going for tuition and doing assessment today also.

pictures!!

act cute.

My favourite dog out of my aunty's 4 dogs, Pebbi, and me.

Act cute again.

I look damn old here. This picture of me doesn't look 13 at all.

Victory!! v(^-^)v

Ugly picture, but the eyes look nice, I hope.

close up of eye.

Cure magazine. I love this issue!! v(^-^)v

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I wonder if he knows, I like him more and more everyday. x___x

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boohoohoo.

My L'Arc~en~Ciel albums.

Please wait for mummy.

I'm really trying to save money.

Please wait for me.

Mummy loves you!!

Please wait for me.

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wo ai ni men.

o(^3^)o muack muack, leeshi

broke

2006-12-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

I'm totally broke. I'm left with a grand total of $24.

I spent $68 on make up, Cure magazine January issue and an album.

Actually, I borrowed money from my mother cause I went out with her and my sister yesterday. Right now I owe her $530. Gah. I really spend a lot of money leh!!

boohoohoo. I still haven't bought my Cure magazine December issue.

And yesterday, when I went to HMV, I realised that they were selling super old L'Arc~en~Ciel albums at $74, $74, $67 and $73. I'll have to save up $288 to buy them all.

I should be able to buy them all by Febuary, I hope they're still selling them by then.

If I really scrimp like siao, I might be able to get them all by January. But I don't want to scrimp like siao cause there isn't really a need to.

I'm also lacking Hyde Roentgen album, Japanese version.

I don't have a single L'Arc~en~Ciel DVD/VCD either.

I'm such a lousy fan.

Anyway. I'm going to get all the L'Arc~en~Ciel/Hyde stuff that's selling in HMV by next year.

I love Cure magazine January issue!! It's so pretty!! And I'm going to copy Ko~ji's (from Arc) make up. Anyway, if I spelt his name wrongly or whatever, please don't bash me up cause I'm not an Arc fan and I'm too lazy to check the magazine.

Recently, I'm getting quite satisfied with my fringe cause it covers my eye and makes it 75% to 95% unsee-able, depending on whether it wants to behave or not.

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My L'Arc~en~Ciel albums... Please wait for me!! Mummy is coming to buy you already!! Mummy love you so much!!

I don't want to buy Phantasmagoria stuff le. My L'Arc~en~Ciel is waaaaay more important. I shall just concentrate on collecting L'Arc~en~Ciel/Hyde stuff.

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I want to change blog url. This blog url is highly unsatisfactory.

I'm thinking of changing it to:

http://miss-estherbelle.blogspot.com
http://leeshi-fairyland.blogspot.com

I actually prefer miss-estherbelle. I think it sounds quite nice.

bye bye loh.

I LOVE HYDE!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha.

Ekie/Jason

2006-12-11T09:13:00.000+08:00

I wish that time could stop right now.

I want to like Ekie forever and ever.

Right now, I don't really have a crush on Ekie anymore. The like that I have for him is more of like, god-uncle that type of like.

I think I'm very stupid and naive because I really believe that Ekie will come to my wedding because he said he would.

What's going to happen is that time is going to pass and Ekie will just become a memory to me. Ekie will forget he once had a fan named leeshi.

Lucy died around a month ago. Here's a picture of her.

I never really supported Lucify. I just supported Ekie and Shinya-sama.

Shinya-sama's already just a memory.

I really don't want Ekie to just be a memory. I want to like him as a god-uncle forever. But it's just not possible.

Replacing Lucy is this plant which my mother bought from China. It hasn't germinated yet. When it does, it's supposed to grow in a way that it will read 'tian1 tian1 kuai4 le4', meaning 'happiness everyday'.

I named it mr. wong.

Shinya, mr. wong, Ekie.

It's supposed to have a lifespan of around 1 year.

I don't care. I'm going to stick to my resolution and like mr. wong until next year december. When the plant dies next year, my like for mr. wong will die also. Just like now Lucy has died, Lucify to me has also died.

lameo.

leeshi is so lame.

and childish.

and stupid.

boohoohoo.

yujun photoshopped.

2006-12-09T17:06:00.000+08:00

I attempted to photoshop Yujun's face.

original:

halfway through. NICE RIGHT!!!!! omg omg omg omg omg I'm so good at photoshop omg omg omg omg omg!!!!! hahahahaha.

end result. walaaaaaaoooooo. Super ugly. paiseh hor. My photoshop lousy. =*((

okies. I got to do assessment cause my mother is coming back. sian-ed. >(

bought coloured contacts!!

2006-12-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

I BOUGHT MY VIOLET CONTACTS!! WOOH!!!!!

I hate going out without make up and I hate going out in the sun, but today, I braved it all and went to Whampoa don'tknowwhatit'scalled to get my violet contact lenses!! yay!! v(^-^)v

Sob. 1 pair of monthly violet contact lenses cost me $35. Sob. =*((

And I can't collect it today, I'll have to wait till Tuesday. =*((

Never mind!! I BOUGHT THEM!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!

I used to hate living in Balestier, but now I love it, cause I can go out without make up and wear random 5 year old shirts and look fat or whatever cause in Balestier, everyone looks like that. hahahahaha.

Last time when I stayed at Killiney Road (which is 2 minutes away from Somerset MRT), because it was so near to Orchard, I couldn't wear old and stupid clothes or look fat at stupid when I went to the supermarket downstairs. Actually, I could, but I would have felt weird.

I love love love love love Balestier and Whampoa!! I hug hug hug hug hug Balestier and Whampoa!! o(^3^)o

And I've found my nose strips too. yay~~ o(^-^)o

However, I still haven't found the neoprints I took with Angel just a few days ago. Boohoohoo. =*((

How I looked like today:

Very sweet and innocent, right?? But I don't like looking 12 years old so I still prefer me with a lot of eyeliner on. hahahahaha. My complexion isn't that good, I put on foundation under my eyes to make my dark eye circles less obvious, and I put on concealer to hide all my pimples and scars.

I really need to cut my fringe. As in the left part that shows my eye, not the right part that covers it. It's growing too long and if I don't cut it, my fringe is just going to look messy.

how to irritate leeshi and how to make her sad

2006-12-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

Top ways to irritate leeshi:

-By liking people she dislikes. Right now, they're Amanda, Jordana, Krystal, Sandra and sometimes Vanessa.

-By liking celebrities she dislikes. (I dislike all famous female celebrities especially Jolin Tsai minus Vivian Hsu, CynDi Wang, Otsuka Ai and Koda Kumi. There are a few more, but I can't remember their names. I also dislike random ugly Hong Kong actors and some Taiwanese like Jay Chou.)

-Not being able to blog when she wants to.

-To break her nail. (but why would anyone break my nail?? Anyway, I broke one last week. GAH.)

-By saying she she looks better without make up cause with make up, she looks fake, fierce, stands out too much, whatever.

-To type in BIG small letters (unless you're Delectable Dennis. Nothing about him irritates me hahahahaha).

-To ask her if she knows who Gackt/Miyavi/Kat-tun/bla is. Or, worse, to ask her if she knows who Hyde is. (If you ask me who Hyde is, I will hit you very very very hard. hello!! HYDE LEH!! of course I know right!! go and die.)

-To ask me to cut my fringe

-To ask me to cut my nails

-Guess what the last one is??

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Top ways to make leeshi sad:

-To talk about her big nose.

-To talk about her small eyes.

-To talk about her fatness.

-To talk about her small boobs.

-To talk about her ugliness in general.

-To say that whoever marries me will be damn unlucky.

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Can you stop stop saying that?? I cry whenever people say that. I really feel very sad okay. I've already given up the idea of getting married and I'm considering turning full time lesbian, so can you stop saying that whoever marries me will be unlucky?

It's so saddening. I know I'm selfish, conceited, irritable, lazy, difficult to get along with and whatever, but still...

I really wanted to get married but I've given up the idea already.

So, just shut up lah. Want to irritate me say something else. Like comment on my small boobs. Whatever. Just not the whoever marries me will be unlucky thing.

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.

embarassing stuff about leeshi

2006-12-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

Embarassing stuff about leeshi:

-she watches hi 5

-she LOVES hi 5 (yes, she is mad.)

-she is slowly becoming an ah lian

-she doesn't think being an ah lian is bad

-she loves kids central

stupid stuff about leeshi:

-she thinks pokemon and digimon is boring

-she thinks people who like Disney Channel are childish

-she thinks people who watch kids central minus pokemon are cool

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Gah. I don't know why I'm like this. I'm already 13 leh!! And my make up is so much lor. I look so fierce but I like Hi 5. Y(>"<)Y

a day out with angel

2006-12-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

I went to watch Open Season with Angel today!! o(^-^)o

I've known Angel for 7 years already!! Isn't that an amazingly long time?

I've been best friends with her before, enemies with her before and now we're just okay friends. =__=

Angel's mother was very nice lah, she paid for my ticket. So, I paid for the neoprints I took with Angel. And Angel in turn treated me to free popcorn and coke!! wooh!! I love free things!! v(^-^)v

But it really irritates me that Angel is shorter than me. GOD I WANT TO BE SHORT ALSO LAR!!!!!!!!! And she's like super skinny?! And attached too?! (O_O)

walao. Where got people so xin4 fu2 de lor!! I also waaaaant. Y(>"<)Y

pictures!! o(^-^)o

Angel and I

Me. Scare you all!! hahahahaha.

More normal ones.

I'm going to put this on top of my blog tomorrow cause I'm super tired now. It's high time I changed the picture.

Yeah yeah, it doesn't look like me. I know. Why? Don't look like me that cannot put ar!! I want to qi1 pian4 quan2 shi4 jie4, cannot meh!! x__x

Esther Yap is in LIME December issue lei!! wow wow wow wow wow!! I want to be in LIME too. boohoohoo... =*((

hahahahaha I'm just kidding lar, don't take me seriously hor.

It's only 11.11pm right now and I feel like I'm going to faint any moment cause I'm so tired. yeah, I am a loserrrrrrrrrrr.

My automatic body alarm hor, automatically wakes me up at 7 plus am everyday?!! and today it woke me up at 5.09am!! Siao right!! grrrrrr. Make me so tired. Then during school term right, it simply refuses to go on lor!! grrrrr.

VERY SIAN LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >(

Sigh. I miss Jiaying already. She's in China right now and won't be back till the 19th. I really want to hold her arm right now. I also want to hold Janet's arm right now. But I miss Jiaying more because Jiaying is more similiar to me, although we aren't alike at all. Sigh.

o(^3^)o muack, leeshi

p.s. I wish my fringe would grow faster and I wish I could stop having bad hair days like today.

im a fairy

2006-12-06T11:51:00.000+08:00

i'm a fairy!!

I spread my wings and fly, searching the world for people to sprinkle magic fairy dust on!!

Ah!! I see my first target!! And she is... Yujun!!

i sprinkle sleepy dust on her!

wait a moment...

tadah!

she is sleepy!!

wooh!! so fun!! on to my 2nd target!!

she is... Aoi!!

i sprinkle small dust on her!!

wait a moment...

tadah!!

Aoi is small!!

yay!! let's go on to a 3rd target!!

she is... leeyi!!!

i sprinkle sleeping dust on her!

wait a moment...

tadah!!

she is sleeping!!

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YAY!!

leeshi is a fairy and it's proven by these 3 cases!!

do you acknowledge the fact that leeshi's a fairy??

you'd better!! or i'll sprinkle you with pain dust!! and you'll be in a lot of pain!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

somewhat normal.

2006-12-06T09:17:00.000+08:00

leeshi, can you please stop being so dramatic!! It's so stupid and childish and you're just embarassing yourself. Next year you are going to regret writing what you wrote.

estherbelle, I don't care if I embarass myself or if I'm going to regret being childish.

leeshi, you're embarassing ME.

estherbelle, sigh. okay lar. being depressed is too tiring.

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Everything in my house is instant.

Instant noodles, instant vegetables, instant porridge, instant soup, instant pizza, instant pasta, instant curry rice, instant mashed potato, instant coffee, instant tea, instant everything.

Right now though, there's only instant noodles, instant coffee and instant tea.

The instant porridge and soup expired in 2005. x___x

and I'm too lazy to go to the market to buy other instant stuff.

Actually, the instant noodles expired last month, but expire 1 month only, eat already won't die.

Gah.

I'm forced to eat expired instant noodles!! =*((

But they actually taste quite nice because I add in oyster sauce, chicken flavouring, teriyaki sauce and a bit of soy sauce and pepper.

To prevent it from being too salty, I only put in half of the powder thing that comes with the instant noodles.

Very bored leh.

I think I might put up a instant noodles cooking lesson, complete with a side dish and drink in a few days.

hahahahaha.

As you can tell, leeshi is running out of things to blog about.

Y(>"<)Y

suck at being emo

2006-12-05T09:53:00.000+08:00

I realised that I'm really lousy at being emo.

It's okay though. I know what I'm trying to express, and that's enough.

I'll tell you all more about it when the time is ripe.

I wonder, will I be able to hold back my tears on that day?

Someone's leaving forever.

I sound dramatic and stupid, I know.

But when someone really important to you leaves, won't you be sad too?

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On a more cheerful note, can anybody go with me to the Lucify gathering this Sunday?

Charmainie, go leh!! I really want to see Ekie again.

Apple, please go and see your darling Shinya-sama. The gathering is free, so you don't have to worry about wasting money.

Jiawei, please go and see Ekie with me!! I feel so uncomfortable without you around.

please please please please please.

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Sigh.

Why do people have to leave?

gone

2006-12-04T14:20:00.000+08:00

I wish that those rumours weren't true.

For a short period of time, I lasped into a false sense of security.

I coaxed myself into believing that they weren't true.

Now that I know for sure that they are true... I don't know what to do.

I stuffed sweets into my mouth.

I poured sweet drinks into my throat.

They don't seem to make my day any sweeter.

I don't think people know how much they mean to me.

I don't think people know how much their every word affects me.

I don't think people know how scared I am of facing reality.

This year, I had fun.

Next year, I'll have to say bye bye.

I can't do anything about it.

I'll just have to let go.

Dennis?? or Jiro??

2006-12-01T12:07:00.000+08:00

I feel like changing my fave member of Seraph to Jelly Jiro leh.

Because I found out that Delectable Dennis types in BIG small letters. LiKe THiS.

leeshi does not like BIG small letters. Y(>"<)Y

but Dennis is the most shuai lor.

but Jiro types properly lor.

but Dennis is more handsome!

but Jiro got nicer nose!

but Dennis got nicer hair!!

but Jiro's hair longer!!

but Dennis is cuter!!!

but Jiro is taller!!!

but by only 3 cm!!!!

but Jiro is still taller!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhh suan le. everything can make exception de.

Delectable Dennis shall remain as my fave member of Seraph.

mama coming back at night only.

argh I lost the library book that I'm supposed to read.

suan le I shall do maths assessment again.

but maths is so difficult!

but maths is good for you!

but maths is so sianifying!!

but your maths failed!!

but only for a few tests!!!

but you still failed!!!

but I passed in the end!!!!

but you still failed!!!!

but I hate maths!!!!!

that's why you failed!!!!!

that's why I don't want do!!!!!!

but you have to do!!!!!!

but I don't want to do!!!!!!!

but you got no choice!!!!!!!

but I HATE MATHS!!!!!!!!

thats why MUST DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhh. =*((

mr wong// a day out with sy, val and ying li

2006-12-01T06:39:00.000+08:00

blogged on 30th november:

ah... I managed to finish my assessment. v(^-^)v

and I found out that mama is coming back tomorrow 7am. not today. walao. make me stay up the whole night to do lor. anyway now I have to read a book as assessment for today. sian-ed.

anyway. I like mr wong for a very stupid reason. It's cause he's very fair. If mr wong ever becomes tanned, I will stop liking him immediately.

why would mr wong's girlfriend be sad if she sees my blog??

Hello, is I like mr wong, not he like me, so there's no reason for her to be upset at all what. (-_-ll)

Shouldn't she be like, flattered that somebody likes her boyfriend?? proves that shes got good taste. and she should be very happy that in the end her boyfriend didn't have a change of heart and still loves her the most.

ah. I think flame is incredibly stupid.

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blogged today:

I went out with Valerie, Siying and Yingli after completing my assessment yesterday!! o(^-^)o

Gah. I was late by 20 minutes, reached Marina Square at 11.05am. I wonder, am I ever not late? T_T

Yingli's name is super difficult to remember la. I keep on forgetting her name. paiseh hor, Yingli. at least I remember it now!! o(*^-^)o

Val val didn't allow me to hold her hand. eeeeevil woman. >:(

So, I held Siying's and Ying Li's loh. v(^-^)v

paiseh hor. When I go out I simply MUST have someone to hold on to. God. I don't know why also. I also really like to poke people and ruffle their hair. It's so fun!! But I am aware that some people dislike it, so I don't poke strangers or ruffle their hair.

okies. Not really. I did that to Charmaine's Lucify fans. But if it's Charmaine's de friends, they should be nice people, right?? All people who don't let me poke them are eeeeeevil. eeeeeevil people. >:(

ah I say say only lah. It's okay if you don't let me poke you if you're not my friend. Sheesh. I don't know since when but I only regard people who let me poke them as friends. Sheesh. Minus Yujun.

We went to Kbox. It's the first time I've been to Kbox in my entire life and I didn't sing. ahhhhhh. Siying's voice so nice!! she should join PSS when she's older.

oh ya, Kbox food not nice de. =*((

This is Val val.

This is the chiobu Siying. But she looks a bit stupid here.

This is Goh Ying Li. omg omg omg I can't believe I remember her name omg omg omg!!

Singing.

Valerie's butt. x___x

Siying and Ying Li.

Me, Siying, Ying Li.

We sang until 2pm and went to the Kbox washroom. Kbox is super cold lah. I think they should lower the aircon temperature.

We ba4 zhan4 one mirror to ourselves.

Val val don't know how to take picture de. Only Siying posed in time. =___=

We found this mirror which made us look super skinny. yay. We are stick thin!! yay. v(^-^)v

Well, we headed to Bugis to take neoprints. I think I look quite horrible in all. x___x But never mind lah. Val val looked worse. She kept on giving this chou4 lian3 cause she didn't want to take neoprints as she found it a waste of money. MISER!! Val val so rich still so miserly!! buay tahan. T^T

Then we did window shopping. I wanted to buy clothes lah. But all the clothes seem to be for skinny people. So, we went to Bugis Village, walked one round, went back the the neoprint building, looked at somemore clothes and I finally bought this $36 thing. I don't think it's nice now leh. I wish I didn't buy it. T_T

Poor Siying had a blister on her leg leh. But she still walked with me to look at clothes. So nice of her!! Now I'm a bit paiseh by my horrid-ness. Y(>"<)Y

Our legs were aching by then, so we went to sit down for awhile. Val val kept on saying that she wanted to go home. x___x

We decided to go to Kids arcade. Siying sat with me on the small merry go round!! And Ying Li sat with me on the Doraemon thing!! So nice of them. lovelovelovelovelove them!! v(^-^)v

We found this super old neoprint machine, and it only cost $3 to take a neoprint, so I paid for the neoprints and asked everyone to take with me.

The 1st picture was quite okay. But we decided we could take a better one.

The 2nd picture was quite okay also. But we couldn't see Ying Li.

The 3rd picture, our last chance to take a picture was the worst picture ever. I think all of us minus siying especially me looked quite yuck. x___x Actually, Ying Li couldn't even be seen. T^T

The final picture for this post. I am pretending to bite Siying's arm. x___x

ahhhhh. It's 6.36 am now. Cause I went to sleep before continuing to blog as I was really exhausted as I didn't sleep for 1 day. ya lar. 1 day only. spend 1 night doing assessment, see you tired or not. ~___~

bye bye. I love everyone!! Including Val val although she doesn't let me hold her hand. Cause she lets me poke her and ruffle her hair. hohohohoho.

muack muack muack muack muack the world. v(^3^)v

P.S. I don't think I look like Dennis anymore. =*((

maths assessment

2006-11-30T04:10:00.000+08:00

ah.

my mama coming back today.

ah.

now is 4.11am.

ah.

she reaching at 9am.

ah.

I haven't done my assessment.

ah.

I got to finish it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah.

hate maths. >:(

ah.

I don't think I will blog for a few days le.

Cause my mama will be in Singapore.

ah.

I THOUGHT GOT SUCH THING AS 31ST NOVEMBER DE WHY END UP DON'T HAVE THEN SHE COMING BACK ON 30TH NOVEMBER!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!

anyway. I'm really outdated on Ekie news. There were rumours about him having a girlfriend and I didn't know until today loh.

ah. don't care la don't care la if Ekie got girlfriend I will wish them happiness don't care la don't care la. Ekie is the best best best best best no matter whether he's single or not Ekie is the best best best best BEST!! v(^-^)v

long term crushes:
-Hyde-sama
-Joojoo oppa
-Kisaki kami-sama

middle term crushes:
-Ekie
-Delectable Dennis
-Mr. Wong
-one girl.

short term crushes:
-Takumi
-Jelly Jiro

ah okies. really got to study le. ahhhhh.

leeshi loves Hyde-sama.
leeshi loves Joojoo oppa.
leeshi loves Kiki.
leeshi loves Ekie.
leeshi loves Mr. Wong.
leeshi loves Delectable Dennis.

leeshi muacks Ekie. muack. muack. muack. muack. muack.

I muack everyone too. I'm going to die already. please come to my funeral. and remember that I love all of you very much. lovelovelovelovelove all of you.

ah. what am I talking about. T_T

Until we meet again. =*((

changed dennis' name

2006-11-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

Just an update of nicknames.

Changed Dennis' nickname to Delectable Dennis cause Delicious Dennis sounds very "er..."

Delectable Dennis <----- contributed by Esther Yap (not Jiro's girlfriend)

ah... I think food related names are super cute. I hope my idols don't mind me anyhow giving them nicknames.

I think Juicy and Jackfruit sounds dumb leh!! Y(>"<)Y Can anyone suggest food related words that start with J??

seraph // lazy to put up neoprint

2006-11-28T17:59:00.000+08:00

Yay. o(^-^)o

Today leeshi is celebrating 1 year of officially having Hyde as her favourite singer and L'Arc~en~Ciel as her favourite band!!

yay. I've loved Hyde-sama for 1 year already. I hope I can celebrate this day every year until I'm at least 30!! v(^-^)v

17 years later... Also don't know whether Hyde-sama die of lung cancer yet or not.

=X

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ah.

leeshi's favourite member of Seraph has now changed to Delicious Dennis!!

ahahahahaha. omg. I change favourite members so fast.

Anyway, I didn't change favourite members cause Jelly Jiro has a girlfriend. I'm waaaay over that stage already.

I changed favourite members cause I look like Delicious Dennis. Since I look so much like him, might as well change right?? Anyway, I originally only liked Jelly Jiro about 5% more than Delicious Dennis.

oh yah. I thought up of food related names for Seraph. Chan!!

-Delicious Dennis
-Jelly Jiro
-Juicy Jieguang <----- this one is Yujun think of de
-Jackfruit Jeffrey
-Lollipop Louis
-Ribena Rachel <----- this one is Michelle think of de

ahhhhhh. From now onwards, I should be mentioning them using these food related names. If anyone disapproves strongly, just leave a tag ba.

2 more, not food related though.

-Kindergarten Kuek
-Lazy Leeshi

names I considered:

Kinky Kuek. Kissable Kuek. King Kong Kuek. Kang2 kor4 Kuek. Kang Kong Kuek.

Divine Dennis. Ding Dong Dennis. Dancing Dennis. Duckfoot Dennis. Dragonfruit Dennis.

Jumping Jiro. Jeering Jiro. Joker Jiro. Jolly Jiro. Jaded Jiro.

Lala Louis. Lucified Louis. Lucky Louis. Large Louis. Lickable Louis.

Royal Rachel. Reachable Rachel. Raisin Rachel. Raging Rachel. Racer Rachel.

ah. got somemore but I cannot remember le.

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I think I seriously blog waaaaay too much cause I'm so bored. Shan't blog anymore until the 30th, at the very least.

impersonation of Jiro // 30 year old teacher fired

2006-11-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

ah...

That person who tagged on my blog is not Jelly Jiro. Anyway, Jelly Jiro said I can put the neoprint back up on my blog. So, I'll put it up later loh. o(^-^)o

A few months ago, there was someone who impersonated Shinya-sama also.

I bet it's the same person.

boliao.

But it's okay man. At least that person made me happy for awhile thinking that Jiro had visited my blog!! o(^-^)o

ah... Impersonater, you are really boliao, you know that?? T_T

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There's this teacher who got fired cause he had a relationship with a female student leh!! (O_O) The student is 16 and the teacher is 30.

It came out in yesterday's chinese newspaper. I summarise it for you all ba.

This teacher, he gave out his number and email to students so that they could contact him for study related stuff. But then this girl, who was 13 years old then, sms-ed him to talk about her problems instead of study related stuff. The teacher would then console her and blah. They two would talk on the phone almost daily as well.

They would meet after school and he would give her free tuition. They would hold hands like a real couple.

One day, the girl's parents found an sms sent by the teacher saying,"I love you."

They were angry and reported the matter to the school. The teacher was warned. However, the teacher and the girl continued their relationship. The girl's parents found out, reported the matter to the school again, the school reported the matter to MOE, and the teacher was thus fired.

ahhhhhh.

The teacher very what leh.

He denies the holding hand thing and he claims that he sent the "I love you" sms only because the girl was depressed and he wanted her to know that someone cared about her.

dot. dot. dot. dot. DOT.

Insensitive dumb idiot man so many excuses don't believe he's really clueless and that girl also very stupid can't believe she liked the dumb male teacher can't believe she admitted to the relationship can't believe that such things happen!!

Gah.

I choose to stand on the girl's side because I totally understand how easily females get touched.

You know, Ekie's known my name for so long already, but I'm still super happy that he knows my name and I whoop with joy everyday cause Ekie knows my name leh. Who cares if he knows 988 675 432 other fans' names also?

AHHHHH!! EKIE KNOWS MY NAME!!

ah. Super old news. I know.

ah.

I'm siao already.

okies. Back to the point.

I think the teacher and girl are both very dumb. dumbdumbdumbdumbdumb!! Especially the teacher, if a girl likes him, he should just be smart and mature and not return her feelings.

Her feelings for him will just die off one day anyway. Does he actually think that the girl might be seriously in love with him?

lame.

ahhhhh. I still like Mr. Wong but I think that it's quite obvious that I don't expect him to like me back and Mr. Wong doesn't even have a handphone so it's not possible for me to sms him.

mrwongmrwongmrwongmrwongmrwong!!

I wanna see Mr. Wong right now!! x___x

boohoo. I miss Mr. Wong. =((

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Mr. Wong <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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me: Mum, you know what? MEN SUCK.
Mother: Yeah. MEN SUCK.

yay. Finally something about men that mother and I agree on. hahahahaha.

Renyue, are you happy now??

Sorry Jiro

2006-11-27T07:09:00.000+08:00

I removed the picture I took from Jiro's blog already.

AH!! Jiro please don't be angry with me!!

Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.

Please please please please please don't hate me or be angry with me!! Y(>"<)Y

ah... I'm really sorry. I wish Esther and you happiness forever.

Sorry.

Seraph

2006-11-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

Found another picture of Seraph, this time with the picture of Jelly Jiro changed. Taken from http://www.friendster.com/user.php?statpos=bc&uid=33649538

Seraph~~

ah!!!!!

Jelly Jiro so shuai!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

more about concert

2006-11-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

forgot to mention in previous post:
-Shinya said,"(new girlfriend name) wo ai ni." and then sang Dou Jiang You Tiao. Quite nice lar. A pity they weren't in final 2 during Superband.

-Met Aoi!! Ruffled her hair and asked for autograph. hohohohoho. I siao already.

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Dennis, me.

Ahhhhh. The picture of me doesn't look like me. Anyway, my face and jaw is a lot bigger in real life. So, I still think I look like Dennis. Our noses are so similiar!! Right??

okay okay. Don't look like lar!! I uglier. happy or not. Ahhhhh!! Why photoshop already face still look bloated!! ah!!!!!

=((

But Charmainie said she likes my fringe. Yay. I cut myself de. However, you can still my eye cause last time when I went for a haircut, the aunty thinned it. AH!!!!! Sian-ed.

Credits for the picture: Aoi. http://melon7.livejournal.com eh. I took away Aoi's face. Aoi, if you mind, tell me and I'll remove it. o(^-^)o

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Yujun says Jiro is uglier than Mr. Wong. You say she siao or not lah. Jelly Jiro so handsome lor. Mr. Wong is fat and ugly.

lucify concert

2006-11-26T04:09:00.000+08:00

yo.

Yesterday was Lucify's concert. Charmainie was supposed to meet up with me and some other fans at Clarke Quay MRT but in the end we didn't cause she had to go back to Hougang cause she forgot to take her ticket.

So, I met up with Xinying ,who was supposed to meet Charmainie also, instead and headed towards Double O first, and met up with Charmainie and Connie there.

AH!!!!! WHY CHARMAINIE DE FRIENDS ALL SO SHORT ONE!! boohoo. I wish that I'm shorter too. =((

Anyway, at first I was really really worried about not being able to get a ticket because Shuting didn't call me until 5 plus pm when Ekie said she would call me around noon. In the end, I got my ticket from Charmainie's friend Xinhui instead loh.

Digression.

AH!!!!! JUU!!!!! WHY I NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!! WHY!!!!! Y(>"<)Y

okies. Digression end.

oh yah, Seraph was there at the Lucify concert too!!

Seraph~~

JIRO SO SHUAI!!!!!

AH!!!!!

JELLY JIRO!!!!! <3

okies. Forgive me ah. I luan luan give nickname.

Jiro Jiro Jiro Jiro Jiro~~ Yeah yeah, Jiro got girlfriend. Me knows. But it's not my business right... (-___-ll) Just cause he got girlfriend means I cannot like meh!! T_T

Jelly Jiro~~
edit: took away the picture cause I used it without permission. AH!! Sorry ah, Jiro!! Don't be angry please please please please please!! Y(>"<)Y

Took that picture from his blog http://jiro-.blogspot.com. It's part of a set of neoprints taken with his girlfriend, Esther, but I cropped her away cause I'm not an Esther fan. Duhhhhh.

I look as if I'm Dennis's sister. hohohohoho. How cool is that!! Dennis is the top middle person in the Seraph picture. Credits for the Seraph picture to Jeffrey's friendster (check my friendster for his account).

Anyway, Yujun says I don't look like Dennis. But Charmainie, Connie and Huiyi say that I look a lot like Dennis. hohohohoho. I know I should be upset cause Dennis isn't very good looking for a girl but oh my god!! DENNIS FROM SERAPH LEI!!

Anyway, I might consider pretending to be a male if I don't go for plastic surgery. But the chances of me going for plastic surgery are higher because I like guys more than girls.

Recently, I find myself not really wanting to get into a relationship or get married already. yay. I've finally grown out of my 12 year old mind. yay.

God. I am so out of point. Okie okies. Back to Lucify.

I don't really have much to comment. To cut it short:
-waited a looooong time before we could go into Double O.
-Got front row standing place. Very lucky.
-Lucify came out. Only Shinya-sama was shuai.
-Ekie cried while Lucify played a song dedicated to his friend who passed away 2 weeks ago.
-Lucify played Gazette's song, Cassis. Not nice.
-Lucify sang 2 english songs. Cannot understand what Shinya-sama was saying most of the time. Only know that one of the songs that Lucify was performing was 'It's My Life' by Bon Jovi cause Sylvester sang it before.
-Chased out of Double O immediately after concert ended. Where's the free drink?? T_T
-Waited for Lucify to come out to no avail, they left without anyone seeing them. Xinying left first.
-Went to eat at Burger King with Charmainie, Connie and Huiyi.
-Went home.

ah... My face and nose are seriously big... =((

So, I only got one picture of me and Charmainie to show you all.

Chan. ah... I really buay tahan my face, so I blurred it.

yah lar. I wore a dumb white baggy shirt. Is my sister's de, not mine. Some people laughed at it cause the message on it was very dumb.

It read,"san1 nian2 la4! san1 nian2 zi1 hou4 you4 san1 nian2. san1 nian2 zi1 hou4 you4 san1 nian2."

Which is loosely translated as,"Three years lah!! Three years later again three years. Three years later again three years."

Very dumb hor. T_T

yay. My concert ticket!!

I tou1 pai1 Seraph.

Dennis and Jiro sat in front of me!! yay.

Ekie and Shinya-sama.

Apple, these are for youuuuu. Your Shinya-sama.

Lucify.

Before leaving, I tou1 pai1-ed Seraph again.

Outside. Yeah. I tou pai-ed Seraph AGAIN. hahahahaha.

Oh man. I regret not asking to take a picture with Jiro. Never mind. Next time if I still like him then take ba.

ah... My handphone camera really sucks nia.

Okies. Very tired le. Lazy to show you Dennis and my face side by side to show you all how alike we look. Tomorrow then show ba.

It's a freaking 5.52am now.

Ja ne~~ muackies!! o(^3^)o

P.S. omg Aoi is so small and cute in real life!! *___* And her hair is not dry lor. No, don't siao, I don't have a crush on her. I don't like shorter girls.

P.S.S. omg. This shot of Misaki is so damn funny. I took it and captioned it. OMG IT'S SO FUNNY!!

Not funny ar...?? =((

hate me

2006-11-25T05:25:00.000+08:00

Don't hate me please.

I keep on having this feeling that people hate me.

And I found out one person really does. I don't even know her and she hates me. Am I really that obnoxious??

Maybe Mr. Wong hates me too.
Maybe Ekie hates me.
Maybe Jiaying hates me.
Maybe Jiawei hates me.
Maybe the whole world hates me.

I like them so much... and yet they might be hating me right now... Why would they hate me...?? It's so saddening.

Maybe I'm just super paranoid right now because I found out one person hates me. I wish everyone could just be frank and tell me to my face that they dislike me. Don't just spread around stuff like,"leeshi sucks." and wait for me to find out myself.

I don't want anyone to hate me... Especially Mr. Wong... Y(>"<)Y

Please don't hate me??

no clothes to wear//tried to do photoshoot

2006-11-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

I have no clothes to wear!!

Mei2 you3!!

Nanimo!!

Finito!!

Kosong!!

Y(>_<)Y As in, I have clothes but then they're all big baggy t-shirts or sleeveless tank tops. I like big baggy t-shirts. However, they are all white in colour and I don't like white. The 2 black baggy t-shirts that I have have been worn like 985 673 457 times?!! And one of them doesn't even count cause it's a Lucify t-shirt. HOW TO WEAR LUCIFY T-SHIRT OUT?!! Superband over so long already lah!!

okies. Lucify concert in about 15 hours.

Maybe will go shopping before that. BUT WHO TO GO SHOPPING WITH?!! Refuse to go out myself. WHY ISN'T ANYONE INVITING ME OUT?!!

My handphone is dead and dust and cobwebs are forming over it. Ew. I don't dare to touch it.

*leeshi is so grossed out by cobwebs and thus gags, vomits and dies*

Ahem. leeshi has been brought back to life by her dear angel Shun-sama from Vidoll. hohohohoho. Please wait a moment. leeshi is in the midst of smooching her Shun-sama. hohohohoho.

SHUN-SAMA!!!!! <3

Ahem. I digressed. Because I was so bored today, I tried to do a photoshoot. Like this one: http://golliwog-mizuki.livejournal.com/1832.html#cutid1

However, the photos all turned out rather fugly and it all looked liked the same person, me. o(T_T)o I think I might post up some of the better ones... Maybe only lah.

Lastly, I would like to introduce some of my newest idols to all of you.

Eiji from Codomo A. ISN'T HE ADORABLE?!!

Shiyuu from Serial Number. PINK PINK PINK PINK PINK!!

Tsukasa from Bis!! I love the eyeliner eyeliner eyeliner eyeliner eyeliner!! It just makes Tsukasa even cuter.

Kousei from... I forgot. I just like his fringe. I'm gonna grow mine like his.

hello, I don't know what you talking about. You know anonymous personally ah?? And Hyde-sama is the most common looking out of all my idols. However, I love his vocals. And I am officially over the height thing. BAH. Who cares if I grow taller than him. I'll never see him in person anyway.

Hyde is 37 years old this year, around 158cm short, married and he's Japanese. I usually only have Japanese idols. okies. Joojoo oppa is an exception.

By the way, I am not replying on the tagboard cause there's only 1 tag so far and I don't wanna spam it with my tags.

HYDE!! lovehimlovehimlovehimlovehimlovehim most of all. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

hyde

2006-11-21T11:08:00.000+08:00

yay. I'm in a Hyde-sama mood today!! o(^-^)o

Isn't Hyde-sama gorgeous?!! okies. Not really. Never mind. I love him anyway.

Dumb picture of Hyde. hahahahaha, Hyde is so cute so cute so cute so cute so cute!! o(^3^)o

I once thought that I really loved Hyde and nothing could stop me from loving him and that I would never stop loving him but I realised that if I should ever grow taller than him, I'm gonna stop supporting him.

How sucky is that.

Never mind. It's okay man! I can overcome this obstacle. I can love Hyde forever. Never mind if I grow taller than him (but really, I seriously hope I won't grow taller).

And I don't know how many times I must say this but people keep on telling me I don't love Hyde, I'm just infatuated with him. I love Hyde as an idol. Not other type of love. So it's love, but it's not deep. It's love, but it's not practical. It's love because I'll like him forever. Really. Never mind. Let's wait 10 years. See if I still like him then. If I do, then shut up.

Long term crushes:
-Hyde Hyde Hyde Hyde Hyde
-Lee Joon Ki/Lee Jun Gi aka leeshi's beloved Joojoo oppa~~ <3 <3 <3
-Kisaki kami-sama aka leeshi's lovely Kiki!!

Middle term crushes:
-Mr Wong
-Kuek from Lucify aka leeshi's Ekie!!
-Shun from Vidoll
-Haku from Babylon
-Glynis
-another girl.

Short term crushes:
-Takumi
-Kio-kun
-Eiji from Codomo A
-Tsukasa from Bis

I like Mr. Wong

2006-11-20T11:40:00.000+08:00

I like Mr. Wong...

I like Mr. Wong...

I like Mr. Wong...

I like Mr. Wong...

I like Mr. Wong...

I really like Mr. Wong...

Maybe I've liked him for too long... Told myself it's time to stop liking him, but somehow I'm not willing to let go.

It's not as if I'm anyone to him... He's not anyone to me... He's just a teacher, I'm just his student.

Maybe it's because I've liked him for too long, thought about him daily for too long. Maybe I've liked him for so long that this feeling I've had for him has slowly become part of me. Held it so close to me for so long. Without it, I feel kind of lost. Like, what am I living for??

I'm not living for Mr. Wong right now but I don't know... Maybe liking and thinking of Mr. Wong has become a habit. Like eating, waking up, breathing, liking Mr. Wong has become a habit, a daily necessity...

Liking him is so dumb. But the more I tell myself to stop, the more I like him.

Maybe I don't like Mr. Wong. Maybe I just like liking him. sheesh. That's so lame.

God, can I like Mr. Wong forever? Can I never stop liking him? I don't wanna stop liking him anytime soon.

x___x

I need to get a life.

I. NEED. TO. GET. A. LIFE.

NOW.

last day of sec.1

2006-11-17T15:09:00.000+08:00

My secondary 1 life is officially over. Went to school today to take report books and bid principal goodbye as well as watch boring prize giving.

Sucked. Mr. Wong didn't come. Totally sucked.

But, I managed to pass all subjects...!!

I managed to get 61.9%!!

THAT MEANS I CAN GO LUCIFY CONCERT!! HOHOHO!!

eh, you know why I get above 60% only then can go Lucify concert? Because I got 54% for term 2 and 56% for term 3 then my mother was like,"Aiyoh, just try to get 60% and above can?" wahahahahaha next time I purposely get low low then don't need to study hard also can get reward.

However, my highest grade was only B4. Boo. TAMADE 2 subjects got a bloody 64 TAMADE why don't give me 1 freaking more mark then I can get B3 and get $200 from my mother?!!

hohoho. I got A1 for Japanese though. hohoho. And I got A for music as well, yay. (But actually music I think everyone got A...)

I still can't believe I passed science. 50/100. So lucky nia. Just passed. I failed 2 physics main tests, got 1//20 and 2/20. Failed Biology main tests, 10/20 and 8/20. Only chemistry I managed to just pass.

And I also CAN'T BELIEVE I PASSED D&T!! It's like, term 1 I got E8, term 2 I got F9, term 3 I got F9, then term 4 I finally passed!! C6!! WOOH!! o(^-^)o

I think Mr. Ho really hates me but it's too bad for him. Teachers are not allowed to write bad stuff about their students. Hohoho. I don't like him also anyway. My CCA points are... ZERO!! Cause my attendance less than 50%. hahahahaha. And everything Mr. Ho gave me for personality is "Fair" I think "Fair" is the lowest they're allowed to give us. Cause after "Fair" is "Bad", but unless you're really really notorious, don't think they're allowed to give us "Bad."

okies. Pictures.

Me and lovely Janet.

Mr. Wong Yoon Foong's form class 1Truth's signboard...

I'm angry cause Jiaying refuses to take a picture with me. Speaking of Jiaying, she only came when school ended lah!! walao eh.

Miscelleneous.

Boo. I only have eyes for Hyde and Mr. Wong right now and I don't know why even my like for lovely Ekie seems to pale in comparison besides Mr. Wong. Like, siao har, Mr. Wong isn't even that fantastic...

Or is he?? x___x

edited timeline

2006-11-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

I changed the last timeline picture. Cause Jingwen and Yujun said it's ugly. And I also agree.

The last picture is, duh, not photoshopped. That's why my eyes are freaking small and my nose is alarmingly large.

2006-11-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Walao. Got this guy called Peter on friendster. He added me and he's like bloody irritating and thick skinned.

Curious to see who added me, I went to his friendster profile lar. And then got this bloody pop out and it won't go away unless you write him a bloody testimonial of 200 characters and above!

BLOODY HELL.

Why so desperate for testimonials?! Why be so bloody thick skinned?!

WALAO I DON'T WANT TO WRITE TESTIMONIAL LAR!! I DON'T LIKE TO WRITE TESTIMONIAL FOR PEOPLE WHO ASK FOR TESTIMONIALS CAUSE IT'S IRRITATING!!

I curse him cheat on his girlfriend and I curse his girlfriend find out and then in a fit of anger cut off his penis. Then he'll become a eunuch and won't be able to have sex again!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

I curse him forced to become ah kua (transvestite) but then got no man like him because he's so damn fugly then the other ah kuas will mock at him. Then he will cry everyday and go into depression.

I curse him because of depression take drugs kana found by police and go to jail.

I curse him become so depressed and mad that he knocks his head against the wall until he bleeds to death. And the whole world will rejoice as we have gotten rid of an idiotic force people to write testimonial person!! YAY!! o(^-^)o

Orbiquack. Force people to write testimonial for what. Stupid testimonials. I don't want to write testimonials for stupid people.

P.S. Aiyah. I say say only lar. In the end I still wrote him a dumb testimonial wishing him good luck and blah. But still. Bloody irritated. GAH!!

timeline of my growth

2006-11-15T02:15:00.000+08:00

Um... I was reading my blog archives and I came across 2 entries in march which has pics of how I look liked then.

I even went back to the old one unity blog which I created to find old pics of me.

Show you all a timeline of how I looked like...

Super fugly me with obiang hair and spectacles was how I looked like all the way until P5 half year.

After that, I looked like the, top row counting from left, 3rd pic all the way until April or May this year. Freaking ugly. The 2nd pic is so "..." What's with the hair and nails?? I can't believe I paid $3 to paint my nails purple during Fiesta. I think I paint my nails myself nicer loh. I swear I shall never keep short nails or short fringe again. To hell with school rules!! At most I pin up my fringe loh.

In April or May, I cut my hair and looked like the, bottom row counting from left, 1st picture. Not much difference. Still super fugly.

Then from the, bottom row counting from left, 2nd picture I started becoming prettier (prettier, not saying I'm pretty, get it?) although my fringe was still quite short then.

Actually I think I look fugly in school all the time cause I have to tie up my hair and I can't put on make up. Show you a recent one with Renyue and me.

Walao. I look like a man.

Mr. Wong dunked in March. hahahahaha. I can't believe I've liked him for so long already.

This was my favourite part of St. Nicholas until they changed the tables and chairs to disgustingly colourful ones.

God I miss my camera. It took such artistic shots... =((

I wanna buy a camera.

I wanna go for the Lucify concert.

I wanna buy a camera.

I wanna see Ekie.

I wanna buy a camera.

I wanna shake Ekie's hand.

I wanna buy a camera.

I miss Ekie.

ARGH I WANNA BUY A CAMERA!! Y(>_<)Y

nice nails

2006-11-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

Yay. I painted my nails. Only 2 on each hand though, cause there's school on Friday, boo.

Mr. Wong might not be going to school on Friday lei. I don't know why, I just have a gut feeling he's going to fall sick and not go to school.

Piccies.

Nice or not? Want manicure must come to me hor.

20 cents for just filing and applying a basic coat over your nails. 50 cents if you want to paint your nails also. 80 cents if you want nail art as well.

hahahahaha.

disfiguration

2006-11-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

I disfigured myself today in photoshop.

I gave myself super tanned skin, smaller eyes, bigger nose, bigger mouth and bigger stomach/face/arms!

So ugly!! Fat fat me. hahahahaha!!

Anyway, now you all know why I'm so scared of getting tanned le ba.

Mr. Wong's 27. So old.

mr wong's birthday

2006-11-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to Mr. Wong Yoon Foong
Happy Birthday to you

*throws confetti in air*

2 more photoshopped pics

2006-11-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

I photoshopped 2 more pics. Gosh. I look really freaky. But making myself look freaky is so fun, don't know why. harharharharhar.

This one sucks, cause it's really obvious that the eyes and jaw's been tampered with.

This one is my best attempt so far. The photoshop's not very obvious, right?

45 minutes to his birthday... I don't know why I still like him...

Long term crushes:
-Hyde-sama

-Joojoo oppa (Lee Joon Ki/Lee Jun Gi)

-Mr. Wong Yoon Foong (by the way, his name is pronounced as Yong Feng, not Yun Feng leh!! Never knew that till today.)

-Glynis

-1 more girl. I can't post her name cause I don't want to ruin our friendship.

Short term crushes:
-Haku from Babylon

-Kisaki kami-sama

-Gackt

-Takumi (check my friendster)

-Kio-kun, Apple's friend, check Apple's blog.

DUH, let's go out someday? I wanna see how you look like... o(*^-^)o

photoshopped myself

2006-11-11T02:17:00.000+08:00

Today I tried to photoshop faces.

I photoshopped a picture of me!!

Chan!!

I made my nose smaller, face smaller, made my eyebags less obvious, as well as made my eyes bigger!! Nice right? I know I look fake and the photoshop is really obvious, but I'm still practicing!!

The original picture was really ugly. So, I refuse to show it. hahahahaha.

I show you Apple instead ba.

Original Apple:

After photoshop:

Apple was my guinea pig so she looks really weird...

But big improvement from the 1st picture right? I gave Apple bigger eyes, a smaller face, a smaller nose and a nose bridge.

By the way, Apple is not ugly. She is really pretty!! But that picture of her is one of the ugliest pictures she's ever taken.

APPLE IS A MEI NU!!

I photoshopped Jiawei too... Not her face, the background. I gave her purple hair, but it looks totally fake and yuck. The original hair was nicer.

The original picture was nicer, but she had someone next to her, then I had to photoshop that person away. Then the background wasn't nice also so I photoshopped it away. In the end, the picture turned out so weird and yuck.

I think the background I made is nice leh. But it doesn't suit Jiawei, that's all.

Sighhhhh.

Never mind. It's okay man! I know how to photoshop my face!! In future I won't post up un-photoshopped pictures of myself. Want to see the real looking me must go back to older posts!!

Yay yay yay yay yay!! o(^-^)o

Credits for brushes: http://echoica.net

dont need sympathy lar

2006-11-10T04:09:00.000+08:00

There's this person on msn... She thinks that I say I'm ugly cause I want people to say I'm not and that I'm very pretty.

eh, you all also think that way ah? T^T

Because no, I am not trying to make people say I'm pretty. I don't go for cheap thrills like that.

If I think I'm ugly, why do I put pictures of myself on the internet? Well, it's because I wanna remember how I look like when I'm older and I post it on the blog because then the words will, like, go with the words. And it will be more interesting to look at then. I also want to compare my before and after photos when I go for plastic surgery.

I don't want to just save it on my computer cause my computer crashes rather frequently and I don't want to print pictures out cause it's a waste of money. I don't want to just save it in a photobucket album because there are no words to go with it in just a photobucket album.

I don't want to set a password for this blog either cause it's so ma fan and irritating. I can't be bothered to go to blogs with passwords. Asking your friends to remember your useless password when nobody even bothers to read your blog, buay paiseh meh.

And I say I'm ugly cause I don't want people to think that I think I'm pretty. Quite often, I come across blogs/friendsters with a lot of pictures of themselves. And they're actually quite fugly looking. As if they think they very pretty like that. It's so embarassing nia. So, I put pictures of myself, but I admit I'm ugly lor.

Anyway, I KNOW that I am ugly, whatever you think.

Okay lar. Miss ________, next time I won't say I'm ugly already. Please don't call me a faker anymore hor.

day out with jiaying

2006-11-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

I went out with Jiaying today.

I was very suay lah, I tell you.

I took a cab to Bugis to meet Jiaying as I was late by 40 minutes. Eh, yes, I am ashamed of myself for always being late.

Then as if that wasn't bad enough, I told the cab uncle I wanted to go to Bishan Junction, not Bugis Junction! And I only realised when I reached Bishan! Walao.

So I was late by 1 hour loh. Yes, I pity Jiaying also. She herself was also late lah, but only by 15 minutes. So she had to wait 45 minutes for me, poor thing.

Then we went shopping and took neoprints. I looked like shit, like I always do. I bought this long sleeved mickey mouse thing, and it cost me $30.50 after 5% discount. Guess what? I LOST IT after awhile. T_T

Then we wanted to go Vivocity. We tried to take the MRT but then we went to City Hall, took the opposite train, went to Dhoby Ghaut and then we crossed to take the opposite train and it took us back to City Hall. From City Hall, we took another train to Dhoby Ghaut and from Dhoby Ghaut we changed trains and, haha, it brought us back to City Hall again. We gave up and decided to go back to Bugis and take taxi to Vivocity instead.

Hahahahaha. So dumb.

Walao lah. I've wasted a lot of money today leh! It's like, taxi fare I spent 15 dollars and the dumb mickey mouse long sleeved thing cost me $30.50. And, let me say this again, I lost the shirt argh argh argh argh argh!

Okies. Piccies.
Jiaying and me in the mirror. Yah lar, my phone camera sucks.

Pretty pretty Jiaying.

Fugly fugly me. Picture made small cause I looked like shit. But I like my clothes, hahahahaha.

I edited a picture. Yay!! Me fairer than Jiaying, wahahahahaha. EDIT: Omg, I put JS instead of JY!! Sorry, Jiaying!

My birthday cake. Mother insisted I post a picture of it on my blog, cause it's very cute and chosen by her.

Credits for photoshop brushes to http://ningengirai.net and http://echoica.net

Luo Yi//old guys

2006-11-07T00:45:00.000+08:00

Yay yay yay yay yay!!

Monday is officially my favourite favourite day of the week!!

There's 1 hour of Luo Yi on channel U that's why.

But both shows also quite boring. x___x

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY LUO YI IS SO CUTE!! o ( ^ - ^ ) o

Recently, all the idols that I have seem to be so old...

Kisaki kami-sama is 30, Kamijo is 31 and lovely lovely Hyde-sama is 37!!

So old.

Mr. Wong's 26. But he looks like... 30 something also. Not I say one lah is people who know that I like him tell me one.

WHY LIKE THAT!!

Why all the guys I like so old one? Joojoo oppa is an exception.

Yay yay yay yay yay, am going out with my favourite favourite Jiaying later!!

bored/Hyde-sama

2006-11-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

Okies. Staying at home is 992 647 298 times better than going to school.

At least I can sleep 12 hours a day, wahahahahaha.

I watched Kagen no Tsuki/Last Quarter again. IT'S SO SADDENING!!

I don't know why but when I watched it last time, I didn't really feel sad or whatever. I only felt like,"WALAO STUPID CHIAKI. Hyde hugged Chiaki!! Stupid Chiaki."

Wahahahahaha. So childish.

I cried like siao this time when stupid Mizuki (Chiaki) was going to leave Adam (Hyde) for Tomoki (Narimiya Hiroki).

Helloooooo, Adam died for her! DIED FOR HER!! And nobody can reject my Hyde-sama, NOBODY!!!!! Nobody should make Hyde-sama sad!!

Sigh. Hyde-sama's really old and ugly compared to Hiroki. T_T

But Hyde-sama IS old what.

Bleh.

I have this constant nagging fear that Hyde is going to die. Like, die of lung cancer or something. Then I end up crying. (-__-ll) Very lame, I know.

Okies. leeshi, don't anyhow say. Hyde-sama's going to live a long long life.

Very bored lehhhhhh. Nobody to go out with and, worse, I don't know Jiawei can go to the Ekie private outing with me.

I wanna go!! But I shan't unless I find someone to accompany me. Preferably Jiawei but don't think she can go leh. ARGH.

Ja ne.

very sian of holidays

2006-11-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

Warning: Don't read lah. Very boring and childish.

I don't know which is worse leh... Going to school or staying at home...

I live in a 1 room apartment with my sister, mum and dog.

Then there's like, no way I can don't see them.

And our ties are very strained cause we're all sick and irritated with each other.

Then my mother always says I am crazy and she's going to put me into mental hospital... Cause I always say stuff like, I wanna be shorter, my nose sucks and tanned people are so gross looking that even if their features are nice, they still look ugly.

Then she always say stuff like, ugly people don't have a right to live is it? Or, you look pretty enough already lah! Can you please stop being siao!! Then she'll say it in a super loud voice... Then she always scold scold scold then I always end up crying... Cause she doesn't want to listen... Only scold scold scold. It always ends up about going to polytechnic or JC and she says she'll disown me if I go polytechnic lor. Siao.

And then I get even more insecure because she's a BIG FAT MEANIE and big fat meanies can NEVER be right about anything. I'm very sure I'm very dumb and ugly and everything bad. I also never say ugly people cannot live... I myself very ugly lor... I just want to be prettier and I really don't like tanned skin... Like that also cannot meh... I say say only what...

leeyi is so yuck also... She hardly ever bathes... Then she also gets irritated very easily and she always says I'm a control freak because I want her to cover her nose when she sneezes and I don't like seeing her dirty foot and I want her to like cover it so I won't feel grossed out... Then she will scold me also and then my mother will side with her and in the end I end up crying again lor.

Then they always say I'm siao and I'm going to become like Ah Juat, my mentally ill uncle because I don't like going out unless I have on make up.

Hello, is my mother don't let me go out with friends one lor. And I really look like shit without make up.

Why must they 'talk' to me in such loud voices... Why must they scold so loudly?

They also know what... I'm just a child... My mother always says I'm just a child... Then wherever I go last time must have my sister follow me... Only recently she let me go out alone... Concert, walking the dog, going to work at her school now all still must have my sister accompany because I'm 'just a child'.

Whenever I cry, my sister will just 'hmph, crybaby.' at me... My mother also don't care... I think it's because whenever I'm scolded I cry instantly then they too used to it already ba...

I don't know why leh, I'm already 13 but I just can't seem to grow up. I really don't like being such a crybaby but I'm very scared of loud things. I'm very scared of being scolded but leeyi is just so irritating and dirty lah... I know I will end up crying but my big mouth always ask her to go away and bathe...

And they always say whoever marries me will be very unlucky cause I'm clumsy, cannot cook, lazy and fickle minded. Then leeyi always says,"On her wedding day hor, leeshi will come over and say, mummy I don't love him leh!! I love another guy!!" And then they will both laugh and laugh.

Just because I'm fickle minded, doesn't mean I will be unfaithful right... I won't... I'll make sure I won't marry till I've been attached for 3 years and above lor... Cause I know if I'm not attached to someone for 3 years above, I might change my mind. I also know I'm very fickle minded what... But don't need to say until like that right... Getting married is my biggest dream and to insult me like that...

Am I really siao? Why they always say I'm siao?? Whywhywhywhywhy...

Okies. leeshi, it's all your fault so you cannot blame them for scolding you. YOUR FAULT so you better wake up and just keep your mouth shut. YOUR FAULT always tell leeyi go and bathe. YOUR FAULT cause you don't like so many things and you are a selfish bitch. Like leeyi always says, you are a bitch. You don't like the F word, don't like fatty food, don't like this, don't like that. Just shut up.

Sigh.

I am HAPPY lah

2006-10-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

Some people that don't tag but talk to me on MSN seem to think I am always depressed.

I'm not lah! T_T

I where got depressed lor! I'm so happy, I can fly!!

Siao ah, you all. Life is so joyous, why should I be depressed? I am happy like, 95% of the time okay.

Happy picture of me to prove my point:

Yes, I am aware it's an ugly picture but that's not the point because I look ugly all the time anyway.

The point is, I am happy lah.

Edit: I realised that the picture looks more bo chup instead of happy. T_T

happy halloween

2006-10-31T20:46:00.000+08:00

Credits: Michelle

i hate liu tingting

2006-10-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

I hate Liu Ting Ting.

I HATE LIU TING TING.

Dumb dumb dumb dumb Liu Ting Ting why is she popular and all that shit why do guys like her hello she is freaking ugly and hello she acts cute and acts cool and I don't think I'm worse than her but why oh why oh why oh why am I so damn different from her and why is she so freaking irritating why does mr wong have a dumb interest in her why do I even bother to be jealous of her ARGH!!

I miss Glynis.

She doesn't read my blog (I think) so it's okay even if I write this.

I've had a crush on her since P6. Wahahahahaha.

It was supposedly over this year. But then. I don't know why I like her again. Old flames die hard ba, which is probably why I still like her and Wong.

I think the possibility of her knowing is very high because whenever I like a person, it's very obvious. I don't know why, I haven't contacted her for ages and the last time we talked was yesterday but thats only cause it was my birthday.

Arghifying.

Anyway even if she knows, never mind, because I trust Glynis to be mature and just pretend she doesn't know. harharharharhar.

I'm super childish because I can hate a person because he takes my sweet, but I can also love a person because he gives me a sweet.

wahahahahaha. A single sweet makes a whole lot of difference to me.

tanjoubi

2006-10-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

Today is my 13th birthday.

Mr. Wong is officially double my age. o(T_T)o

Today was suppposed to be a very happy day because I was supposed to watch Death Note for the 3rd time with my family.

However, my grandmama and mum are not free and Death Note is not showing at stupid Balestier Plaza.

Furthermore, I also happen to look very retarded, noseless and fugly today.

God knows why.

Pictures. Made smaller so that you won't get nightmares.

Me and grandmama. Oh my freaking gosh, I don't have a nose today, argh!!

Me. SEE. I told you I look fugly and totally retarded today.

What I was wearing.

Bleh.

Hardly anyone wished me happy birthday too. =((

But!! Ekie wished me happy birthday!!

My lovely lovely Ekie the bassist of Lucify!!

I love him, I love him, I love him!!

Wahahahahaha.

Presents that I've got:
1)Estee Lauder eyeshadow set from mum. Quite useless since I don't use eyeshadow.

2)Famous Amos cookies and bear from grandmama and aunty Mary.

3)$50 from grandmama

4)3 bottles of nail polish from Weining and a very fugly picture of me.

5)2 notebooks and a box from leeyi, my sister.

6)Eyeshadow and 1 free Death Note movie ticket from Esther.

Whee. Very little but whatever, 6 is my favourite number!! o(^_^)o

Byeeeeee.

Muack muack muack!! o(^3^)o

hahahahaha.

wong rocks

2006-10-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

On second thought, I won't stop liking Mr. Wong anymore.

In fact, I like him even more!!

Because he likes Overdrive by L'Arc en Ciel!! I've never heard Overdrive before though. I'm a lousy laruku fan!! I only know 'Driver's High', don't know 'Overdrive' lor. =((

But he kind of spelt it wrongly... It's not L'arc en Ciel, it's L'Arc en Ciel. Y(>_<)Y

Capital A okay.

Yay. <3 Hyde sama!! <3

Okies. I am the dumbest person on earth and I predict that next year I will look back at the me this year and be embarassed.

It's like, I bet I will be like,"What the hell, how come I used to like Mr. Wong!! Walao!! What was I thinking?!"

hahahahaha, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Muackies!! o(^3^)o

mood: embarassed and dumb.

argh. stupid wong.

2006-10-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

Okies.

I should just like, stop liking Mr. Wong, cause he'll never like me. In fact, I have this feeling that he seriously hates me.

This is what he wrote on his friendster profile.

"Am trying very hard to overcome my intrinsic prejudices towards people that wear make-up, paint nails, wear accessories and spend too much"

And I do all of that. Except for the wear accesories part. What the hell is intrinsic anyway!! Y(>_<)Y

I seriously waste a lot of money. Like, this month, I overspent by 200 dollars. I used all my savings up too.

Which brings the amount I've spent to a whopping $600.

Okie okie.

Next time don't spend so much already.

But I really like painting my nails. And I really love my make up, especially my eyeliner lor.

I should just stop liking him.

I say say only, I know I won't stop liking him.

This is what Ugenie wrote in a testimonial to Wong...
"Okay so she put her picture there &
added why am I so ugly

Your fan's rather interesting, yes"

Oh.

I think it's quite obvious she's talking about me ba.

I am ugly.

Cannot hah!!

Ugly people cannot be zi4 lian4 hah!!

Ugly people don't have a right to live is it!!

I know I'm ugly, but it's like... Haiyoh.

Very embarassing leh... To be termed as Mr. Wong's fan.

My fear of Mr. Wong has increased.

GAH.

Let me just die.

Okies.

Didn't mean that.

I wanna live, for Hyde.

hahahahaha.

wong

2006-10-27T17:00:00.000+08:00

I hate Mr. Wong lah.

I read this person's blog, she's called Ugenie on friendster, and she said he's really leaving.

Oh oh oh!! Yuujun, are you Ugenie ah??

Sigh. How can Wong leave lah!!

Aiyoh. Aiyoh. Aiyoh.

Let me die die die die die.

How can he leave!! And why he tell Alison he's not leaving!! Why!!

And I'm going to miss him like siao, I am, I am, I AM!!

And he doesn't seem to favour 1Truth, hmmmmm. Cause his friendster was like, naming all the classes that rock and 1Truth wasn't there, hmmmm.

Bleh. =((

Mood: bad.

leeshi

2006-10-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Last post for today already lah!!

Don't chase me away. Y(>_<)Y

Just posting to say that I finally updated my profile that can be viewed on this blog.

It was super outdated lah, like, I didn't like a lot of things since a very long time ago lor.

Okies, byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

MUACK!! o(^3^)o

resolutions from 2006

2006-10-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

I say first, very boring post again. For future self reference. Don't read lah!

Preparing for a new 2007!!

I know I'm kind of making my resolutions and reflecting kind of early, but hello, I have nothing to do during this super long 2 month holiday.

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Resolutions:

These were my last year resolutions.

1)LEARN JAPANESE!! (I got A1!!)
2)Trim eyebrows
3)Get good results for end of year exam.
4)Not to be last in class.
5)Become more open minded. Because if I don't, I will 'chi kui'.
6)Buy more L'Arc~en~Ciel albums. (bought like... 2 more Laruku albums. Very little, I know.)
7)Buy Dir en Grey albums.
8)Go to Japan again. (Went in June...)
9)Be nicer to Grandmother. (I am nice and polite when I want to okay. I'm not always rude.)
10)To be honest and not to tell any black lies. (Bah humbug. People say I'm to straightfoward. T_T)
11)To not discriminate against any race or less smart people (Done.)

I fufilled... 7 of them. Can already lah.

Unfulfilled:
1)Trim eyebrows
2)Get good results for end of year exam
3)Not to be last in class
4)Buy Dir en Grey albums

Lazy to trim eyebrows already... And this year I was seriously un-motivated. Not interested in Diru anymore, although Kaoru is still very shuai.

This is what I blogged last year.

"Pressure is good for me because it acts as a motivator. I'm sure if that there was no competition I would become very lazy and stupid. I'm glad that my mother is around during examinations because if she wasn't there to make me do assessment, I would surely fail my examinations."

hahahahaha. And I really failed my maths, science and chinese cause my mother this year very bo chup. Don't care about my results.

New resolutions!!
1)Lose at least 5 kg.
2)Not to be last in class.
3)Not to become an ah lian.
4)To like Wong until end of 2007 at least, harharhar.
5)Become prettier!! hahahahaha, but that's not possible nia, I'm so ugly. =((
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Reflection:

This year, I've had crushes on Natalie, Krystal, Benita and... who ah?? I think I like too many people already, cannot remember a lot of them.

And no, I don't have a crush on any of them anymore, I stopped liking all of them during June holidays.

The only person I continued liking was Wong. (-___-ll)

I seriously don't like the last time me, whether it's 1 year ago, or a mere 1 week ago.

A year ago, I wrote in super long paragraphs, and I wrote minna san as minah san. I also wrote demo as daemo.

A year ago, my blog was very disgusting cause I would have japanese words suddenly appearing in english sentences and paragraphs.

Very yuck leh!! Y(>_<)Y

Excerpt: "So... Minah san, I'm going to St. Nicholas. 2 male teachers not bad looking lah, I bet there are gonna be loads of girls who are going to crush on them. I'm not included... I'm faithful to Hyde, haha... I'm kind of addicted to Hyde. If I don't listen to his songs for 3 hours I feel a bit sad cause his voice is really really nice! I know lah, I very luo suo, said this many times before."

Okies.

The only thing I like is the Hyde part because I'm still a very devoted Hyde fan right now. hahahahaha.

The 2 male teachers were Mr. Wongwongwongwongwong and Mr. Seth Tan.

Walao.

They both ugly like siao lah.

Don't know what the hell I was thinking.

And I did end up crushing on Wong, hahahahaha.

Last year, I was also so act mature lor. I also didn't like a lot and a lot of things.

I also thought I was very smart last year, so arrogant. I was overly confident last year, and this year I have too little confidence, harharhar.

I still have 2 bad habits.

I blog excessively about nothing in particular and I don't like the F word. I don't like, I don't like, I don't like!! F word no good!! F word bad bad!! People who say it out are big bad meanies!! Y(>_<)Y

You can tell that I am very immature from the fact that I cannot accept the F word, hahahahaha.

Sigh.

This is what I said last year: "These days I find that if I had the choice to boost my looks and become the world's prettiest woman or boost my IQ tp 300, I find that I would rather boost my IQ."

Right now, I would rather be the world's best looking woman instead of having IQ. hahahahaha.

L'Arc en Ciel officially became my favourite band on November 28th 2005.

I don't want to read already lah!! Read my archives very embarassing leh!!

I don't know why I wanted a best friend so much and I don't know why I said I didn't care for my friends.

Hello, how I have been so unappreciative and dumb lor. And really lah, I was so arrogant!!

I would rather have super low self confidence than super high confidence.

And and and, I don't really mind being bullied as much as I did last time lor.

Nothing wrong being lesbian also what... I myself am bisexual lor.

I don't know why I wanted to be a teacher. Siao one.

I also don't know why I liked Cui Peng. He's so ugly.

I wasn't innocent last year, I was ignorant lor.

And I seriously embarassed myself last year.

This year also. But last year worse.

Sigh.

chyu gakusei ichi nen sei no saigo nichi desu

2006-10-26T18:36:00.000+08:00

Warning: I'm just crapping on and on, mostly about Mr. Wong. So don't read lah.

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Today is the last day of school.

I am really sad, you know.

I miss Mr. Wong like siao already right now.

And I just saw him like... 5 hours ago. hahahahaha.

Everyone knows that I like Mr. Wong, but do you know that I've liked him since the first time I went to St. Nicholas and all the Sec. 1 teachers introduced themselves??

That's 10 long months.

I wonder if I'll like him next year. I highly doubt so lah, he's so ugly and lame.

Besides, I am very very scared of him lor.

I have a phobia of Mr. Wong!! How!! Y(>__<)Y It's like, today I was supposed to sit in the 1Truth bus but I really felt very ugly so I decided to switch with lovely Renyue and I ended up sitting in the 1Loyalty bus instead.

But in the end I was in the same group that Mr. Wong was in charge of so I still got to see plenty of him.

Okay lah, not really. I tried to avoid him as much as possible. hahahahaha. I didn't dare to look at him, I don't know why!!

Lame Mr. Wong thing of the day: He cut an envelope into the Death Note style. Like, you know, when Light asked the FBI agent to write down 12 names of the FBI agents into the envelope? Yah, that type of envelope. And he asked all the people who were going to sit in the 1Truth bus to write their names and handphone number on it. Siao.

Oh, he saw us at woodlands leh!! I didn't see him lor! Maybe he saw Alison they all without me since I joined later, hmmmmm. Hope he didn't see me because I am seriously FAT.

He wished me happy birthday in Japanese. I think he did, or maybe he was talking to someone else. I don't know!! I didn't dare to look at him!! Y(>_<)Y He said,"Tanjoubi no omedeto."

Tanjoubi no omedeto?? Got such thing as tanjoubi no omedeto meh?

Unless the conversation is like:

A san: Omedeto!! (Congratulations!!)

B san: Donna omedeto? (What type of congratulations?)

A san: Tanjoubi no omedeto. (Birthday's congratulations.)

But then won't it be very weird?

Shouldn't it be like:

A san: Omedeto!!

B san: Doshite? (Why?)

A san: Kyou wa anata no tanjoubi deshou? Dakara o tanjoubi omedeto. (Today's your birthday, right? So, happy birthday!!)

Okies, still weird. Pardon my bad Japanese, but you get what I mean lah.

By the way hor, Mr. Wong learnt Japanese by himself. By himself leh!! Li4 hai4.

Sighhhh, got 1 girl from 1 Purity like him also leh!! Sad.

I bet that I'm like the ugliest one out of all the people who like him.

Yay yay yay, today I got to sit at the same table as Wong for lunch!! I don't know why we ended up sitting with him, there were like so many empty tables at first lor.

Then Weining saved a seat for me besides Wong but I refused to sit next to him because I was, ahem, shy and scared. harharharharhar.

Lunch wasn't too bad. We had some dry bee hoon and bandung drink.

Mr. Wong was lame, as usual. And he's seriously very ugly leh. How!! I have bad taste!! Y(>_<)Y Sighhhhhhhhh.

He's also very show off-ish lor.. Every few sentences he will suddenly speak Japanese, and his Japanese sounds so un-Japanese. (-___-ll)

He likes Lin Chiling. He also likes Xiaolin (Hyorin) from Princess Hours.

Yay. I like them too.

<3 I love love love Jiaying, Janet and Natalie Chung Siting!! <3

They're so nice to poke!!

I know Natalie doesn't like me to poke her, but I can't help it. Who ask her to be so nice to poke!! hahahahaha.

Okies. I'm being selfish and bad and rude and mean by poking dearest Natalie. =((

Never mind lah. Next year cannot poke her anyway, this year must poke her as much as I want.

Nails painted and decorated by yours truly. No, I didn't remove the nail polish when I went to school today.

Left hand. Yah lar yah lar, my hand very fat lar, I know. Quit bugging me about it!:

Right hand. Fat right hand also. I know. Don't bug me about it!! I'm depressed enough, thank you. (T___T):

No, the school doesn't allow painted nails but I don't care about the dumb school rules. Anyway I only broke half the school rule, I only painted 5 finger nails.

SIGH.

End of Secondary 1 leh!!

It's been a really short year. And I haven't done any studying at all. I just slacked like siao. Secondary 2 cannot slack already, sighhhhhh.

Most memorable thing: Mr. Wong, Mr. Wong, Mr. Wong!! o(^_^)o

I didn't get to say bye bye to teletubby. Teletubby = Mr. Peter Tay. He's so funny and nice. I never pass up homework, fail D&T also never scold. In fact, he always smiles.

BOO HOO. I MISS TELETUBBY AND MR. WONG WONG WONG WONG WONG!!!! =((

Other random things:
1)Gave 2 boxes of girl guide horrible tasting biscuits away. 1 to Alison, 1 to Renyue.

2)Went to Causeway Point again with Jiaying and Elaine. Bought a shirt. $1.90 hat sold out. Jiaying disappointed cause have to take neoprints without funny hat. Ate Yoshinoya. Went home.

I really don't like Mr. Wong's current hairstyle. His previous hairstyle was better lor!! Y(>_<)Y

Okies.

End of boring crappy blog post where I'm droning on and on.

Byeeeeeeeeeeee.

Muack, muack, muack!! o(^3^)o

wong is weird

2006-10-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

Mr. Wong is lame.

He updated his friendster profile.

And now he's single, not married anymore.

Why he like that one, so bad to his girlfriend.

And he claims he has no phone lor.

But Benita told me Liwen has his handphone number.

His affiliations used to be this Yishun church and don't know what church but now it's 'all hospitals with cute nurse uniforms'.

And his hobbies and interests used to be 'death, curses and the occult' but now it's 'women'.

He likes Death Note leh!! Happy.

But his favourite show is Princess Hours, he likes Chaegyung (Caijing).

Mr. Wong likes cute girls, and thats why I'm so depressed. I'm not cute at all, argh.

Aiyoh. Mr. Wong is really very weird leh!! o(x___x)o

P.S. Updated Japanese blog. Url: http://pink.ap.teacup.com/monogatari

outing with Jia Ying, Alison and Wei Ning!

2006-10-24T22:37:00.001+08:00

I went out with my beloved Jiaying, Alison and Weining!!

I was supposed to meet they all at 10.30 am at Weining's house to eat lunch but I decided that I didn't want to wake up.

So, I almost didn't meet them.

But I finally woke up at 1 something pm and I called Weining to ask where they were and applied my make-up before I meeting up with them at Causeway Point lor.

Weining siao one lor! Meet up at 10.30 am? MORNING LEH!! Where got people wake up so early one?! People want to sleep lah! Meet up in the morning indeed, hmph.

Took neoprints! No picture for you to see though, cause my handphone camera sucks.

Anyway. We watched Death Note!! 2nd time for me and I was like, so tempted to tell Alison everything that was going to happen during the movie.

I paid for Alison's and Weining's ticket cause Alison is like, very poor and I owe Weining a birthday present.

By the way, when we were lining up to buying tickets, I saw this guy with blonde hair and he had black nails! BLACK NAILS!! So cool!! I like, I like, I LIKE!! He wasn't very shuai, but I almost fainted because his dressing and everything was so cool. Seriously lor! I really felt giddy and blah, hahahahaha

I paid for the tickets, then I ended up having no money to buy clothes argh argh argh!

I keep on being forced to wear clothes that I don't like and make me look fat, argh!

Today's shirt made me look damn fat lor, I tell you. =((

Still siao Jiaying the best.

There was sometime before the movie started so we went shopping and then hor. And then hor, and then hor, AND THEN HOR

WE SAW HATS SELLING AT $1.90!!!!!!!!

WAKAKAKAKAKA! Very cheap leh!

So, all of us except Alison bought one.

Show you all pictures.

From left to right, Jiaying, Weining, the belle of our group, and Alison with our $1.90 hats. I lent Alison mine. They are girlband number one! o(^_^)o

Girlband number 2. I got fat face, sighhhhhhhhh. =((

Actually hor, I wanted to take 4 of us together but we were all too shy to ask someone to help us take a picture. hahahahaha.

My hat and a pink clip I bought.

Me and Weining, acting cute but I don't look cute at all. (-___-ll) Even the pink clip doesn't help, I'm so un-cute, I'm depressed!! =(( I hate taking pictures with Weining cause she's so pretty lar, argh!! x__x

Alison and me, supposedly acting cute again but I failed miserably. Y(>_<)Y

Alison and me, acting cool.

Me and my favourite Jiaying!! o(^_^)o

After watching Death Note, Alison and Weining went home while Jiaying and I stayed behind to look around a bit longer and eat dinner at Yoshinoya.

I dragged Jiaying into Comics Connection cause I wanted to buy Death Note stuff but I ended up buying Joojoo pictures instead. Sigh!! I am very not determined leh! How! T_T

My shuai Joojoo oppa.

I was quite shocked at how Yoshinoya makes their soup. They pour this packet of powder into a machine and the soup comes out through a spout from that machine lor!

I always thought they cooked it, silly me.

Then.

I went home and Jiaying went to meet her mother lor.

So, here I am blogging about my day.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Muackies!! o(^3^)o

wong

2006-10-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

Wong cut his hair and I find him incredibly ugly right now.

Jiaying and Weining, the best friends say that he looks better.

But Natalie and Brenda agree he looks worse.

It's like, he's seriously damn ugly why do I like him I find myself so dumb and stupid and normal and yuck and why do I like Wong he's totally ruining my day today, argh!!

Y(>_<)Y

After having a beautiful, lovely 2 months of 24 hours continuous, serene happiness, I have a bad day.

I found out today that Wong has a girlfriend. He's MARRIED on friendster, I now then realise. Ting ting says his girlfriend is very cute.

That's not the bad thing actually. Have then have lah, none of my business since even if he don't have I also don't have a chance.

The bad thing is, I realised I am freaking normal.

I don't wanna be normal!

Why am I so normal and average and yuck?

Why why why I work so hard to be not what everyone is but it all comes down to the same thing.

Everyday I work so hard to be different and I'm just not.

This sucks.

Being rebellious very good meh, won't people get sick of you?

Being exceptionally nice/smart good meh, there'll always be people who want you to just shut up and go and die.

Talking about sex all the time good meh, don't you find it irritating and dumb to talk about it all the time?

Being normal good meh, then nobody will notice you.

I am dumb. Only I believe whatever Wong say.

He say he got no handphone, I believe.

He say he's 35, I believe.

He say he's single, I believe.

He say he's married and has 3 kids, I also believe.

They all turned out to be fake lah, duh.

I'm so stupid and ugly and this is so damn depressing!! =((

Okies.

Tomorrow is a happy day.

I am listening to Hyde right now.

I can't remember if my 1 week is up.

But I feel like shit right now, and nothing can cheer me up besides lovely Hyde.

Tomorrow, I will be unique. Tomorrow, I will be satisfied with myself. Tomorrow, I will be happy. Tomorrow, I will be weird. Tomorrow, I will love myself again.

Today, I'll just wallow in self pity and cry my heart out.

went to visit vivian/happy deepavali

2006-10-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

Ma, leeyi and I went to visit Vivian today. You know, the person who has this muscle illness and appeared in the newspaper some time ago? Well, ma is helping her out with some business lar.

Me, ma, Vivian, Vivian's mother. I'm blocked out cause I look like a man in that pic, bleh.

This one features my sister instead of me.

Sister and me. Okay, I know, I look like shit so don't bug me about it. At least I better than my sister right.

Then, we went to Uncle Rajah's house to celebrate Deepavali!!

Indian food.

I wish people wouldn't complain cause I take a long time to get ready to go out.

You think very easy to transform myself from this to someone presentable ah?!

Not easy, okay!! That's how I look like at home, super fugly. The tissue's there to prevent spectacle marks.

Nothing lar, I look very fair here, that's all.

Yay yay yay, my birthday's coming soon!! 28TH OCTOBER!! 6 DAYS AWAY!! Cannot forget hor, all of you!

I'm actually very sad cause leeyi says I look ah lian and very act japanese. I agree with her also.

Not my fault right, I got nothing to wear and my tshirt happens to be from harajuku.

Not I purposely act japanese one lor.

Okies, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Muackies. o(^3^)o

P.S. By the way, I very zi4 lian4 one lah. That's why so many ugly pics of me. I know I'm very ugly, but ugly people cannot zi4 lian4 meh??

watched Death Note

2006-10-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

I watched Death Note today with lovely lovely lovely Esther and Yujun!!

I went for a haircut also, cost me $45. So expensive, siannnnnn.

Anyways, I love Esther cause she gave me this nice eyeshadow thing and she paid for my movie ticket, wooh!!

And and and, she lets me punch her stomach and poke her, so nice.

I hate Yujun lah, she's so pretty and skinny, urgh!

She's really nice though and I really don't think she looks scary at all. But definitely not one to be messed with. She doesn't let me poke her also. =((

Okies. Pictures.

Esther and me.

Yujun and me.

Yujun and me, close up. Walao. I look like shit.

The pretty Yujun.

I really think Yujun very pretty leh!! But in pictures she doesn't really look that nice, don't know why. And I hate myself lah. I look so ugly all the freaking time.

So sian, I think I look nicer in real life also when I put on make up. Look like shit in school. I hate my handphone camera!! Totally cannot see my eyeliner loh.

Death Note was a little disappointing.

Quite boring leh, the movie.

They never follow the manga loh.

But L and my Tatsuya Fujiwara and Misa-Misa really damn good looking.

I LOVE MISA-MISA!! <3 <3 <3

She's so pretty.

Oh yah. I met Chen chen and Siying also. Chen chen looks weird. Not used to seeing her with hair down. They saw Joakim leh! So lucky, I also want to see Joakim.

Never mind.

I SAW BEN YEO!!

Okies. Big deal. Ben Yeo then Ben Yeo, he also not famous. Y(>_<)Y

Wah. I really don't know what to blog about. So... Ja ne.

Today was really fun and I'm a happy happy girl!! o(^_^)o

natalie

2006-10-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

I have this feeling that I'm irritating Natalie Chung.

Maybe cause I always talk to her about Mr. Wong.
Maybe cause I'm not her good friend but I always talk to her on msn.
Maybe cause all the tags I tag on her blog are about Mr. Wong.
Maybe cause I ruffle her hair.
Maybe cause I punch her stomach lightly everytime I see her.
Maybe cause I never do anything for our P.E. project but still get marks anyway.

I think it's all ba. So I won't go her blog anymore, although there's always stuff about Mr. Wong.

And how come people know me but I don't know them. What is this! Got this Tiffany from don't know what class know me and Puisan's 1Purity friend also knows me.

Then it's like, they say I'm famous.

I'm not famous! Not semi-famous either okay.

I think I blog too much about boring, useless stuff.

Shall abstain from blogging till Saturday, which is merely 2 days away, cause I shall hopefully have pictures to post up.

And why people think I stalk Mr. Wong?

Is it cause I blog a lot about him?

The fact is, I hardly see Mr. Wong okay.

I don't follow him around.

I don't, don't, DON'T!

Okies. Don't blog about Mr. Wong already, I know I like him then can already.

Ja ne.

wong not leaving

2006-10-19T17:08:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to school yesterday. Aiyah, I wanted to but my sister, mother and I all never hear the alarm go off.

Then I went to school today, but Mr. Wong's on MC.

Siannnnnnnn.

But never mind, Mr. Wong's confirmed NOT leaving.

Alison asked him. And he said he was just joking.

Then why all the teachers say he might be leaving for personal reasons huh?! huh?! HUH?!

walao. I freaking cried like, 3 times, cause I thought he was leaving.

I siao one.

Other than me, there's this girl called Liwen in 1Truth (Mr. Wong's class) who likes Mr. Wong.

I feel like kicking her! Snatch with me the title of 'Mr. Wong lover'(title bestowed upon me by Trella la la)! hahahahaha.

On a happier note, I'm with 1Truth for the Malay Heritage trip!

Wooh!! I'm so lucky, lucky, lucky!! o(^_^)o

Ureshii ne!

wongwongwongwongwong. The more I say out his name, the more I type out his name, the happier I feel. So...

wongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwongwong.

I'm so lame.

piccie

2006-10-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

Nah. The Vanessa group with Mr. Wong picture.

Okay, okay.

I know lah! He looks so old and ugly. Y(>_<)Y

But aren't his clothes so cute? o(^_^)o